Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
You asked if I want to watch Harry Potter. Even though I said no, my heart is dying to say yes. I'm hurt, I want us but I'm hurt that my brain is saying no to you. Each letter typed, I feel so pain that eye droplets are about to drop anytime. And we never fail to watch Harry Potter together. I want to watch Fast 5. And you know I always look forward to any non horror movies with you. Now I want to watch Fast 5, I only think of you to watch with. I guess I will miss Pirates of the Carribean. I really asking myself, did I enjoy gathering with my friends without you? I really don't think so. That time you were too busy to join us, and I even left them halfway to look for you. I'm so confused.
I didn't say I don't want to follow you, but I only want to have the option to be able to travel back frequent to spot check on my young business. I'm so sad, even at this stage I'm told I'm under your consideration even after the proposal. Did I really treat you badly? I really didn't unless when we argued and I need cooling time and ignored you. How can you say you do not have friends? I thought if we can buy a house here soon, we can settle down. But I'm wrong. To you it's just like living in a pigeon hole. I really don't need you to spend money to buy me a car. I only want a home for the both of us. It's a simple request that all girls want. Sigh... Am writing this pathetic post when I'm on the train going home. I'm already so used to having you around. I look forward to our long awaited holiday to Melbourne. The Hokaiido trip to see sakura and lavender, and so many surrounding things here reminds me of you. No wherebyo vent my sorrow except this pathetic old blog. It's so diffiult to look happy but I'm dying internally. I haven't slept well. My eyes are too tired. I think I'm fated to remain like this forever.