Friday, November 13, 2009

Happy on the outside, but...

I'm actually a very sad person on the inside. I don't understand what happen to all the good old manners that our parents that have been passed down? It's seems like those who are nice and polite and seems to know how to be human on the outlook, they are actually very irritating, don't want to let you know. Or maybe just want to keep everything to themselves or don't want to inform you at least until promptly indirectly. Sighz... I'm actually quite hurt after the effort I've done. It seems unappreciative. Everything still evolves around money. Sorry I'm not that rich although I've already tried my best to subsidise as much as possible.

I don't see myself as a petty person. I believe my torlerance level is pretty high, but something that has been accumulated for so long, I finally throw my patience away and keep my silience.

It seems that all that was planned and agreed earlier are all talk. I'm quite disappointed that I have to find my way home from NSRCC. How can I ask another when I thought everything was settled? Really lost and disappointed but yet I have to put a strong front.

And yet I cannot talk to anyone about it. I can't even put the full story here. I have to bottle up everything if not people think that I'm bad mouthing or don't like them or whatever crap story.

Sometimes I feel that it's nice to be alone. No worries, no headaches... sighz...

Monday, October 19, 2009

Stop pushing me

I'm no superwoman damn it!

I'm so pissed at my demanding HR. As if they can do a better job! If so, they don't need me to be around at all! Can't they be a bit more appreciative? How did they ever become HR? No bloody PA skills at all? Do they really care about our staff welfare? PI! NO! So last minute give me the info, and they want it out by the next day? All they do is complain to my manager if I don't do the job? !@#$%^& lar! You think your things is the only one in the whole world I have to do meh? I already put it out within 2 days! Not forgetting your bloody errors you gave me and I have rectify them for you one by one? Just use what I gave you first. The improvements will come in later when I have more time! I seriously think they need to revise their approach. I'm absolutely sure I'm not the only one in the whole office pissed at them.

Why is it that I have to purchase a flat that's not within my means? What's wrong with the further away places? It's more reasonably priced. Not that I'm psychoed by people. Of course who doesn't want to stay near their parents? Am I nuts not to? I just cannot afford? And just because I cannot afford means cannot marry? I'm going to breakdown soon. !@#$%^

I'm so upset with work and family and future being. My immune system has gone down and I can't talk to anyone about it. I'll just get blast again. So frustrated, so upset, and I'm about to tear... Signing off... *sniff*

Tuesday, October 13, 2009


I keep getting wedding invites these days... haha... I'm happy for the couples no doubt, but I'm getting broke as well.. hee

Firstly, there's Weiheng's wedding... I did the make up for her as well...

To view more, you can visit my portfolio blog at

And next I had Clarence Ti's wedding... But NO PICTURE! Haven't got it from Clarence... hahaha...

Then in August, I attended Annie's wedding... And all my wonder colleagues and ex-colleagues...

And Andy Ong's wedding... I have a card photo... but I'm lazy... Maybe I'll post that later... Hahaha...

In October... Ah Boon and Sharon's BIG day! With David, Anthony, Alan, Lai, Cassidy and my darling... heee

Last but not least... Shihui's big day! She was gorgeous... But the picture I have doesn't do justice to it. She was tall, sexy and hot!!! And... It was like are union/gathering for my JC friends... haha... I wonder who is next. :x

Hmmm Looks like I wore my Bonito Chico dresses to all the weddings except Ah Boon's. Should I continue wearing them? hahaha... Oh well... Hope you enjoyed the pictures! =)


I'm on MC and I'm in the office. What the hell am I thinking? haha... OH well... the day is passing quite fast today... So... Blog more later!

Saturday, October 10, 2009


We went for Stomp yesterday and I totally enjoyed it very much! =) Good company and good food... I can't complain more. :D

Even after cam-whoring at the hawker, it continues in the theatre... haha.... Nice backdrop... =)

And vainity takes it place... hehe...

My Portfolio

I'm currently slowly building up my portfolio in make up and hair. Do recommend your friends to me yah? I won't be charging expensive. ;)

Monday, August 31, 2009

Glen Medeiros - Nothing's Gonna Change My Love For You

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now, touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead a way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now, touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Baby don't you break my heart slow...

Words by Vonda Shepard
Music by Vonda Shepard & James Newton Howard

I like the way you wanted me
Every night for so long baby
I like the way you needed me
Every time things got rocky

I was believing in you
Was I mistaken,
Do you say, do you say what you mean
I want our love to last forever

But I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

I like the way you'd hold me
Every night for so long baby
And I like the way you'd say my name
In the middle of the night
While you were sleeping

I was believing in you
Was I mistaken
Do you mean, do you mean what you say
When you say our love could last forever

Well I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

You would run around and lead me on forever
While I wait at home still thinking that we're together
I wanted our love to last forever
I was believing in you

Well I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

A false front

WHY? I'm soooooooooooooooooooooooo frustrated...

Why does one department don't understand the meaning of saving money? Once one department buys, the rest also want to buy. It's a trend! And don't you know it's BAD for the company to spend unjustified money? I just don't understand. And guess who is the purchaser? ME! And guess who receives all the chasing from vendors? ME! They are just so selfish. Just want comfort. Might as well take the money and give me a pay raise! I'm so PISSED!

It's really a bad day. Quarrel with him. I'm so hurt and heart broken. Just need to be alone.

Monday, May 11, 2009

Disappointed myself

It doesn't really pay to be good. I helped to organise a buying online shopping order together, but I end up disappointing myself even more. I ordered 2 qty, but only came 1 because of all the confusion of all the other orders which was added on later. Now I'm stuck, I love the item but yet only come in for one. Then my friend how? What a mess. I won't order on behalf of anyone anymore. Only come to know to make myself miserable.

Monday, April 13, 2009

Keep your social life and lose weight

I came across this article on MSN and I think it's all true and it's the reason why I have been losing weight as well... I will give my constructive comments in the article...

Get clubbing

Getting down on the dance floor is not only great aerobic and cardiovascular exercise, it generally means you'll spend less time standing at the bar with the temptation of buying another drink.

Eat a well-balanced dinner

Filling up around 7pm before you go out will prevent you from succumbing to pub or bar snacks and takeaway temptations later in the evening.

Drink in moderation

Opt for soda or tonic water rather than soft-drink mixers. Add a slice of lemon or lime for extra zing! Skip the kilojoule-packed cocktails for a glass of wine. One (200ml) medium glass of wine has a POINTS value of 2.

Dinner parties

If you are invited for a dinner party, it doesn't necessarily mean a night of abstinence, just a little bit of self-control.

Hold back on pre-dinner snacks

Nibble on olives in brine, rice crackers, or celery and carrot sticks with a bit of hummus. Avoid handfuls of chips or lollies as once you have a small handful, you'll develop the taste for more!

Eat slowly

When it comes to dinner, enjoy the taste of your food by eating slowly and savouring each mouthful. Chewing food well also makes sure you generate saliva that produces digestive enzymes in the stomach. Try sipping water between mouthfuls and place your knife and fork down for a break.

Fill up on vegetable side dishes

Try salad or steamed vegetables instead of garlic bread.

Drink plenty of water

When a dinner party is in full swing, wine glasses are topped up abundantly, so drink plenty of water in between to avoid dehydration. Remember it's okay to pass on topping up your glass.

The pain

I'm suppose to be doing my work now... But I simply cannot concentrate on work well today. My eyes are so painful... Red and sore. My beautiful eyes are ruin.

I enjoy my work. But I'm starting to question my own abilities. Am I up to it? I'm assigned to quite a number of projects this year. I am very honoured for the assignments as I think that I was assigned to them because people think that I am capable to do so. I am very touched an honoured although I may not show it.

I'm currently in-charged of the newly re-vamp Intranet. I have done quite a number of modifications and many more to come to make the Intranet more user friendly and better in terms of ease of maintenance for users. Actions includes designing, programming, layout, logical thinking, analysing the needs.

I'm also helping out in the SQC Results team. I'm suppose to be gathering data from the Operations side. Operations include Leadership and Processes modules in the SQC proceses. The duty would include analysing how we fair and what are the loop holes or why we faultor in certain areas.

In ERP, I'm assigned to helping out in the technical section which I have a lot to catch up. I have so many things to learn and have to be extra cautious when implementing new changes/updates into the ERP so as not to disrupt users testing/usage. In whatever context you wish to call it.

Last but not least, all my daily routines. Back ups, server maintenance, users support and help, occasional purchasing. Duties include covering for Singapore, Thailand and China offices. I'm just thinking, Andy can do it, so can I.

Wow, after typing so much, I'm just wondering big time how I can manage. Esp on the Intranet which I have many more ideas to implement to ease and help the company to better manage on our product listings, updates etc.

At home, house hunting has be so difficult. If it's not too expensive, then feng shui not good, then house too small, house too old, house odd shape, house too shack, house too noisy and the list never ends. So many quarrels and disagreements.

Having type so much... I'm now feeling very useless and incapable. How many times I have bring back my office work, and thinking of my own house work... I don't know...

Sunday, April 12, 2009

House Hunting

House huntying is such a chore... I'm so tired viewing at all the houses. The prices are still pretty high even though the market is bad. If only I have the cash, increment in pay(which is pretty low chance), or have some sort of grant or sponsorship.

Anyway with good deal in terms of my following criteria:
1) Plus minus $400K
2) Above 90sqm (4A type)
3) Good condition, but if the place is in bad condition, we don't mind if the owner is willing to sell it at low value.
3) Areas preferred: Bishan, Toa Payoh, Boon Keng, Whampoa, Kallang or Tiong Bahru.

Let me know if you have any of these! =)

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Spring Fusion

I haven't been doing a lot of make up lately... Anyway, this it's spring time, this photoshot are all spring inspired... Hope you like it!

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

7 April 2009

Yeah I have been neglecting my blog once again... I'm working on a new blog shop selling shoes... do look out for that and support yah? =)

Anyway, I just celebrate my birthday today... and I shall let the pictures do the talking...

Me camwhoring before my date with my family...

Venue: Lawry's at Paragon

The Menu

Beautiful settings... with Nice Chandellers!

Check out the french maid uniforms that the waitresses are wearing! Cute!

Sherwyn and Tjun had dinner sets... includes soup, appetizers, main course, dessert and coffee/tea...

Soup!!! Tiger Prawns and USA Scallops for Appetiser!

Main Course: Pork Rack.

What Mom, Dad and I had...

Spining Bowl Salad -> Very refreshing, must try! And California Cut with Mash Potatoes and Yorkshires' Pudding -> Very nice... can't explain.. Go try when you have the money yah?

White HorseRadish the compliment the steak.. But I think the steak taste better on its own.

Sizzling Mushrooms to share! We had 2! =)

Highlight!!! The chef actually brought out his mini "pit" to serve us our steak there and then on the spot! How cool is that!! On the spot, they will asked how we like our steak to be done and it's done there and then! Fresh... I like it... Something different from the norm...

These salt and pepper are specially done by Lawry's to compliment whatever food we had. We were recommended the pepper to be added into the soup for the extra "punch" but I am allergic to pepper. So I didn't try. Try it the next time and let me know!

One big Happy Family with a Very Happy GIRL... Yes STILL GIRL OK! :D

My mini birthday cake by Lawry's. ^^

Desert's for Mom and Dad. Very nice hazelnut chocolate!

Beautiful toilets are important for pampered girls like me. HAHA... ;)

Highlight of the day! My birthday present from my precious finaciee... A pair of Brillant Rose Diamond earrings from Soo Kee...
I'm totally touched.

A very tired Birthday Girl... One year older... Hopefully it means one year wiser too! *winks*