Thursday, December 23, 2004

Ahhhhhhhh.... 1 more day!!!

Tomorrow will be the day I've been dying for! I'm going see my Darling in more than a month! I miss him so so so much... Time pass faster! Woooooooooooo I can't wait to see him! Hee... Opps.. I forgot I still have a lot of housechores to do, which I'm too lazy! Wah hahaha.. For obvious reasons... Hee....

Right.. Lets see... I met Helen for dinner. Had Sakae sushi for dinner.. Yum... Wah... I can hardly write my blog properly. I'm filled with excitement. Hehe.. haha... I come back from KL then write again.. hehehe

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

In a really good mood!

Opps.. I didn't blog yesterday... Well, it was a highly anxious day. I was eagerly waiting for my exam results. Out of 4 units, I had 3 confirmed pass units. I am VERY sure that I couldn't have failed any of my subjects. It was the subject that I studied most for. I really had a hard time coping with my exams really. I had 3 papers in 2 days. Was like consecutively having exams without having a break. I ALMOST DIED. Am glad it's over. I know I cannot expect great results.

Anyway, besides my eagerness, I went jogging in the morning, talked to my DEAREST DARLING online. Hee... And chatted with Luther, Chin Fee, Pheli, Adeline, Dan... OMG.. I just got confused who was who.. hehe... Ok.. To say it simplier, the Salsa Gang. The Salsa gang is planning a Christmas party at Riz Carlton. Having a Presidential Suite. Pot luck Party with I think LOADS of Salsa.

Went to the dentist in the afternoon. My appointment was 12.30pm, but only got to see him at 1.30pm. :S And I took less than 5 minutes in the room. I think everyone knows that I took out 4 wisdom teeth. I went to take my stitches on my gums yesterday. Yes! I can eat anything now. hehe...

Meet Chewpeng at 2pm, went to Funan IT Mall to get her router cum modem to split her internet connection between her PC and laptop. *Don't look at me, I don't know anything... :D Just kidding.. will help as much as I can.* She bought a laptop bag cost $98 too. :S Sheesh and it's not for herself. :S Oh well... Went to Raffles City to look at some stuff.. haha.. cannot say it here. For some people... Just in case he reads my blog. :P Chewpeng bought a Tigger Booties for her nephew. So cute! hehe.. I then headed for my Mom's office to go together to collect my laptop which I have sent for servicing earlier. I spoilt the keyboard, and I think that there's a lot of spyware in my laptop too. Now it's as good as NEW. Yeah......

Went to Orchard to catch a movie with my mother. We watched The Polar Express. Was really quite a nice movie. Makes me feel so "christmasy". Though it's a children's movie, but my mom and I agreed that we enjoyed the show. After which we headed to Newton to get some Satays and Cheng Teng. Heee....

Oh... and Today? Why am I in such a good mood? Coz I just receive my results... I pass all my subjects! Hehehe... Am very excited now. I knew that there's a mistake somewhere... But it means that I have to study smart next semester. Oh man............ PHEW..... And I'm so excited to meet my Darling..............

Shit....... my body is sooo aching......... Went jogging again this morning........ :S

Monday, December 13, 2004

Unfruitful Day..

Basically, I spent my time doing nothing today. Woke up in the morning, checked Monash email, checked other emails. Watched a little cartoon, I think it was Bayblade and spiderman. Haha.. I was so bored...

Then Darling came online... hehe.. Chatted with him for sometime... Web cam and skype. Just in case some of you don't know what Skype is, it is a program for audio conversation over the Internet. It's a good program go download it. Go to and search for skype. Was so good talking to my Darling. The day we're going to meet again is getting nearer and nearer... Wooooooo I'm just so excited. So cute looking at his cute face again with his new cutesy hair style - Thanks to the Vietnamese barber. *LOLz* Oh well... Darling was tired, so he took a nap.

Chatted with Gary for a while about the trip to KL. Woooo, am so looking forward to it. Heee... Despite all the unhappening things that happened the past few days.

Had lunch in the afternoon, watched Scooby Doo and Woody Wood Pecker. Washed the dishes, then called Darling to wake him up just in case he over sleep. Haha.. He still wanted to sleep... What to do.. Will call him an hour later. Then Pheli called to chat. Chat until I needed to go to the toilet, then called Darling to wake him up.

Then I was preparing dinner while chatting with him. Cooked rice, "you tau fu" soup and stir fried spinach with ikan bilis. Then had to put down the phone to have dinner with mommy. He called me later to continue our little chat. To find that he hasn't had dinner! Sheesh.. So was discussing what should he have for dinner. In the end, he had chicken and veggies with rice. Not too bad.. If not he will always end up eating bread with milk. My poor darling.. :(

Am feeling a little anxious about receive my exams results. Sighz.... I hope all goes well... *cross my fingers.*

Sunday, December 12, 2004

Really boring Sunday

I'm a little better today. Talked to boyfriend on the phone. He kinda know the situation now. I feel a little more at ease now than yesterday. I suppose the situation a little better. I was so vexed over so many things. I'm trying not to make anything any more difficult.

So the plan for KL trip:

24 Dec: Morning, 7am - Set off to KL
Afternoon, approx 12.30pm - Reach KL, meet bf (Woooooooo I can't wait).
- Go and have lunch together
- Shop shop, walk walk...
- Maybe teach bf and best friend to dance salsa
- Don't know if Gary is meeting his online pals
Evening, time not sure - Dinner treat from best friend's cousin
Night, time not sure - Go salsa? Maybe?

25 Dec: Morning, time not sure - Breakfast? Haha.. Don't know leh...
Afternoon, time not sure - Lunch treat from another cousin of best friend
- Shop at don't know where.
- Don't know if Gary is meeting his online pals
Evening, time not sure - Dinner with bf's parents/family.
Night, time not sure - More salsa???

26 Dec: Morning, time not sure - Breakfast? Haha.. Don't know also.. :P
- More shopping?
Afternoon, time not sure - Lunch together.... and last minute shopping?
Afternoon, about 3pm? - Return to Singapore via Train.
Night, about 10.30pm? - Touch down to Singapore! With boyfriend.. heee...

I hope all things goes well. NO... I'm not straining any friendship. Just needed to vent out some stuff. Not everyone is perfect right?

I'm so happy that Darling is such an understanding boyfriend. I'm so glad to have you dearie... I know you're fed up. So am I. But nothing much I can do but try to compromise everything. :) Love you darling......... *kisses kisses*

Fed up... Vexed...

Ok... Today was a happy day for Luther, Adeline and the rest who went to the surprise birthday party. Am glad and happy about that. Another happy thing was that my mom learnt how to make strawberry cheese cake from me. But deep inside me, there's a lot of trouble rolling in my mind and heart.

Trouble number 1:
I think I haven't been salsaing for a long time. I have de-proved so much. I feel like I'm not part of the salsa group anymore. As much as I tried to brush up, I even took beginner again in Monash just to get a different technique of dancing. What did I learn at the end of the day? Nothing. I danced with total beginners, and ended up dancing like a beginner who is better at dancing. I wanted to teach my friends salsa, at least, when I teach someone, I get to develop some technique while teaching. But I didn't get to do so because of time constrain.

When I'm back on the dance floor in Nov, I'm just told that I haven't rust much. Ok... Then later after extracting my wisdom teeth, I danced less too. I don't wanna injure myself while dancing. There's a small possibility of getting injure, but neh, I won't take the risk. Then I'm also told by another friend that I have rusted quite badly too. My steps are too heavy for the guys to lead me. He's probably right too, coz I noticed that by the time I get the guy's lead, I cannot execute the steps in time/properly. I'm a little demoralised by looking at new comers who have been in the dancing scene less than me are much better and perhaps more beautiful than me too. I feel like... To a point where I feel like giving up sometimes. Perhaps also giving up for studies. Like what I did to my piano. I gave it up for studies.

Trouble number 2:
Most of you know about my long awaited KL trip. My best friend agreed to go KL with me and then she expect my boyfriend to pay for her accomodation. The thing is that she didn't say until after we bought the tickets, which makes me very vulnerable for her to back out because I paid for the tickets and she hasn't pay me.

Then I tried to look for cheap hotels. To save money for all 4 of us who are going to KL. Then she somemore can tell me don't need to get so cheap one, because she is not so "LOK KOK" But she not paying somemore. She instead on not paying. Then I'm just thinking then why she even bother to agree with me about going to KL? I need her to go with me now, coz I don't want her to back out. I want my money too you know. Sighz...

Yeah, I did ask her to go with me. But she don't have to agree to go if she got no money. Even with 4 people sharing one hotel room, she don't wanna pay.

My purpose of going KL is to visit bf and to have fun as in holiday. She was the one who suggested when I was in Melbourne that we could go to KL for hols and also at the same time visit bf. But now, I'm just soooo...

And now she managed to get her cousin to let us stay in his house for free. And my bf don't wanna stay with us coz he say it's so weird. His house is in KL mah. Sighz.... I keep getting the feeling from her that, "Wah, you go visit bf then will dumb her aside." But I ain't that kind of person. Sigh, but that's not the point. My ideal purpose is to go out have fun together.

Then I also have another friend coming with us also. coz he wanted to go KL for holiday for a long time already but my this friend and best friend dont know each other.

The situation like so difficult. We booked the hotel already. Only after booking then my best friend managed to get her cousin to let us stay in his house for free then now bf don't wanan stay together at all.. initially, 4 of us, bf, me, my friend and best friend share one room and I'm prepared to pay for best friend's hotel share somemore. Then now, since we don't want hotel already, she expect bf to pay for her meals. I just feel very fed up. Meals so cheap she also don't want to pay. And obviously I don't want bf to pay for her, I don't mind paying for her.

Moreover, we've bought the ticket to go KL already if she don't go, the ticket is wasted. And I paid for the ticket somemore and she haven't pay me back. The situation is the most difficult for me. I called bf just now, he's like quite fed up also, everytime change here change there. The most paiseh thing is that it's his father who went through all the trouble to book the hotel for us. He went to all the hotels in KL just to find a suitable price rooms. Unfortunately all the hotels are fully booked, even the not so popular ones. Only managed to get Park Royal hotel, which I think it's a 4/5 star hotel. Sighz. It was the best his dad could get for me.

No point talking to her about the problem, she will just say that she will back out of the trip then she haven't pay me. I can't like ask her to pay first, she just comment that she don't have the money now. I'm so vexed.

Then just now bf said, he might as well spend time with his friends, coz now we're going to stay at her cousin's house for free right? I can't force him to do things that he don't want to do.

What's making it hard for me now is that my best friend got another older cousin also in KL, who wants to bring us out for a meal one of the days during our stay and the cousin who's house we're staying might bring us out for a meal too. It's really nice of them. But Bf hear already, like he was the one who was suppose to bring us out. but... then he said "then maybe he should spend time with his friends" I was hurt. But I can't do anything. I feel so helpless. There's nothing anyone can do anything too. then now is that I dont know when the cousins is going to bring us out. then I also cannot tell bf... hai......... No plans no nothing...

We will be in KL from 24-26 Dec and I was hoping to spend Xmas together. As 24 dec, bf will pick us up then go for lunch together. Then he asked me, what am I going to do on the 25. I said I hope to meet him. Then he replied, 24 we're meeting already what. OMG.

I really feel bad, coz his dad went through a lot of trouble to get the hotel for me. Because of me he had to do this. Sighz... I feel like I've given his parents a bad impression.

What to do.......................

Thursday, December 09, 2004

Boring days...

What can I say about yesterday? Hmmmmm... It was a rainy day... Spent most of my time watching cartoons on Kids Central and chatting online. Chatted until Chinny Baby came online and jio me go watch movie - Bridget Jones Diary, The edge of reason. Almost couldn't make it because of the rain man. But heng ah.. Didn't rain, anyway, Chin came in a cab and we shared cab to go to The Regent Hotel first to dump her stuff in her mom's room. Then off we head to Great World City in a cab again. It was pouring quite heavily.

Got good seats... Not many people went to watch movie. Oh well, it was a Wednesday afternoon afterall. :D Was quite an enjoyable movie. It's about this journalist, Renee Zellweger, who is looking for love. Her ex lover was a fellow journalist, played by Hugh Grant, was a pain in the butt. Seems like he still loved her but left her to settle her problem when she got hold back by the Thai authorities for trying to smuggle drugs. She was framed by good buddy's fling. The story is that her good buddy went to tell her supposedly boyfriend, played by Colin Firth, a lawyer. This lawyer boyfriend went through a lot of trouble just to clear her name. Was something to show that he still loved her a lot. Somehow, when he went to Thai to get her out, he just said that he was a messenger. :S Her buddy told her everything. Bleah.. OH... sheesh, I can't describe leh.. Just go and watch it yourself yah? :D

Evening was like spending time with mommy... Then talk to boyfriend on the phone until I wanted to sleep. And was high time for him to sleep. hehehe...

And Today...... MY BROTHER WENT TO NS! WAH HAHAHAHA Awwwwwwww Poor thing... The camp was quite BORING... No entertainment, the NS boys just stand there.. talk among themselves. I'm pretty sure that all the parents and relatives who came were bored.... Unless they had questions. Well, as for me and my mom, I guess we know what it's like in the NS. The rough idea that is. My brother and I were in the NCC mah. NS is just going to be a lot tougher. hehe...

This batch of NS that went in today are the obese.. Sheesh... All the fat boys. hehehe.. imagine, in a few months time, they will be macho men! Hopefully.. haha.. As for my brother... To his consolation, he was actually one of the slimmest man! Wah hahahahahaha... kekekeke... Oh well... He took his oath to the nation with the other newly enlisted recruits. Afterwhich, they had to line up outside the audi, like prisoners, waiting for parents to take them. Haha... Oh well.... Then we had lunch together.. Just like the days at Amoy Quee camp. :/

Oh.. I met an old friend, Edwin there too. Was an old NCC friend. Still remember me till this day. :D And he's going to Sydney next year. Can meet up. If he decides to come to Melbourne that is.

Reached mainland, went to the pasar malam near White Sands, bought Pulut Mayam, fried chempadat, some malay bread thingy. Then went to Geylang to an umbrella shop to get myself a good new umbrella, went to the post office to settle my mom's office's xmas cards stuff. Bought some Tau Sar Pia from the famous shop at Balestier. Reached home, took a nap until 8pm man. Haha.. Almost forgot about dinner............................. :P Just ate some left over curry chicken noodles and otak. Everything was soft enough for me. Had to eat everything on the right side of my mouth. Hai.. Poor me. :D

Chatted with my dear dear DARLING again. hehehe... Oh.. Finally the strike is over. Hopefully they will release all the results. :S Keep my fingers crossed.

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

Monday, Tuesday....

Monday monday.... We woke early in the morning, waited for Chewpeng and we went to Cold Storage together to buy ingredients to make Strawberry Cheesecake and Fruit Jelly. We spent about an hour in the supermarket. The hardest to find which the graham cracker crumbs. Hee... Oh well... bought bubble tea home and had lunch together.

Started work at about 1pm. It was fast to prepare, though we had to use a lot of strength beating the ingredients together. Baked the cake for an hour, letting it cool took a really long time... Then letting it chill in the fridge took another 3 hours. Sighz..

While during these long process, we made the fruit jelly. Boiled water and made the gelatin, put the fruits into the jelly moulds. Made about 2 ++ boxes of jelly. hehe...

Ate as much as I could that day coz Tuesday is the day I'm going to take out my wisdom teeth on the right side...

Tuesday........ Was the DREADFUL day...... Went to the dentist, dont know why I had so much injection yesterday. My cheek is swollen now. Sobzz... Was painful yesterday. Could feel the dentist pulling out my teeth. Yeah.. I had 2 wisdom teeth pulled out on the right side. :S Had 2 stitches too.. One for the lower gum, and another one for the upper gum. :(

Went home, couldn't eat anything. Took pain killers that took such a long time to take effect. Slept in the afternoon trying to forget about the pain. Woke up at about 5. Sheesh, I could barely talk! I was like "mmmMMm mmmMMm MMMmmm" Unless Kok Fei, my brother in NCC, called me and thought I was sleeping. And laughed so loudly. Sobz sobz... Soong Fee called me about the Salsa party at Chijmes. She too thought that I was sleeping. :S

Couldn't eat anything last night too. Not even porridge. Sighz.. Had cream of chicken soup and just drink everything down. Took my medicine, then mommy came back. We went to NTUC for a while to get some stuff for my brother, for his NS. Haha.. Brother going NS tomorrow! :P

Oh well, I drove to NTUC. Then Mommy was laughing loudly to tease me. Sobzz... Coz I couldn't laugh at all. So painful. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :( Oh well....

Chatted with Darling last night... Bleah... Sighz..... I miss you so much.

It's going to be Cream of Mushroom soup for lunch later! haha..

Sunday, December 05, 2004

Sunday Sunday......

Darling msged me quite early in the morning ah.. hehe.. But I was awake long time ago. But didn't reply him coz I was busy doing some house stuff. Went to Toa Payoh market to buy some pork, chicken and veggies. According to mom, the food are a little cheaper there. Hmmm... Bought some "Cheew Kuay" and some pancakes with cheese fillings for breakfast.

Reached home and started to scan my computer for virus and helped Daddy to defrag his laptop. Laze around... Then got changed and headed for Little India for lunch. Coz this little puppy was having craving for India food... Dosai, Masala, etc... Hee... Ate somewhere near Mustafa so that we could shop there later. We had.... Erm... Paper Dosai, Masala Dosai, and Indian Donuts, and.. I don't know the names.. but it was a puffed up puff thingy and the white kuay which is a little sourish. Hee... They were ok... I ate nicer ones... Long ago. Haha...

Went to Mustafa to buy some adapters for Darling, looked for batteries for my personal alarm. Daddy almost lost patience, coz the service wasn't very good. Was only looking for batteries, and people were pointing here and there... Don't know where they were pointing also. Went round and round just to get one small stupid battery. Oh.. it's not the normal battery that we're talking about here. It's the extremely small ones. Not the button battery. Yeah.. hmmm.. oh well... the problem with big shopping centres.

Oh.. And Daddy called my cousin who's dealing with electronic products about my IPod. Oh well.. He told me not to buy yet, coz there's a new MP3 player coming out by Sony. And told me to buy a seperate hard-disk. Wanted the IPod coz I can listen music and store data mah. Convenient. But I guess... Oh well... See how lah. hee....

After Little India, we went to Ikea to buy new lamp shades for my mom's side table lamps. The old ones were dirty and... hmm not presentable anymore. Got 2 white ones, coz the ones that my mom wanted were out of stock! Sheesh... Wanted to go to Queenstown (or is it Queensway) shopping centre to look at Tee shirts to wear. I don't have anymore decent Tees to wear. Hmmm... But no time.. My uncle was already near my place to collect out old newspapers. Oh well... Some other time I guess. Sad sad....

Now am waiting for DINNER! Wooo... But first... Going to call my Darling first... hehehe....

Shopping and more shopping!!! - Saturday

Instead of heading for Union to see the salsa competition last night, I spent quality time with my mother. I think it was worth it. We went to the market in the morning and had the best handmade noodles in Singapore! Was yummy delicious. It was the one in Whampo market, the one that was shown in one of the food series on TV. Bought Nasi Lemak from the malay stall for lunch. Then went home for a while then head for the beauty salon at 12 noon.

I think my technique of taking care of my skin wasn't too thorough. Had quite a lot of oil clots embeded in my skin. Was a really painful process pinching the oils and white/black heads out and pimples. I did the AHA facial as well... Was so itchy! They said it was the skin renewing process, that's why. Oh well.. ITCHY AH....... Look like a red face girl now coz of all the extraction.

Reached home at about 4pm, only to find out that my brother ate my ta paued nasi lemak! Sad sad.. Oh well... My mom and I just had to go to the market hawker centre again to eat lunchie. Mom and I shared a plate of nasi lemak with egg, ikan bilis and cabbage. Darn! It was $2! Sheesh.. but still cheaper than in Melbourne lah. Oh well...

Reached home... rested for a while... Sent mom to the hair salon to do her hair, I went home to bum around, then pick mom up again. Folded the laundry. Help mom with cooking dinner.. I stir fried the veggies (kan na), and mom fried some salmon. We had those and pig stomach soup for dinner. Yum.....

After dinner, we decided to go shopping! Went to Bugis to walk walk... I wanted to see the skirt with the shorts sewn inside from OP, which I saw when I was with Wanxin. Hee.. Went to Seiyu to see it. Darn! They didn't have my size in the colour I wanted. Sad... Too bad lah... Went to walk around, see see look look... Then walked out of Seiyu, and I saw the OP shop! Wooo.. I got excited and went into the shop. And I saw the same skirt/shorts thingy that I wanted! And in my size! hehe.. I was so excited. I went to try and woo.. nice nice.. well, I think it was nice lah.. :P Mom thought that it was nice too. Naturally, I bought it. Hehehe.. Used my visa. :P But daddy pay. :S hehehehe...

Just walk walk... Went to those push carts shops looking for xmas presents. Saw a shawl shop, but the shawls were a little overpriced and too flowery to my and mom's liking. Went into Cold Storage to look at some sauces available. Bought some Campbell soups for next week's lunchs. Oh.. I'm going to extract my wisdom teeth on the right side of my mouth. So preparing some soft food. Wouldn't be able to eat solid food. Oh well...

We walked until shopping were starting to close. And we came another shawl push cart shop, and saw more nice shawls! This time at quite good prices. I bought one for myself of course. hehehe...

Was a nice day with my MOMMY!!! hee....

Friday, December 03, 2004

Think about what you did before you say others...

Well, I know some of you heard some stories that I've been saying about my boyfriend. He's really not all that bad. It's only that one incident. Yes, it's a REALLY big impact on me, and many gave me advices. I know that I would give my friend the same advice if they were in my position and been in a relationship for a long time. Come on, we're only in how many months into the relationship, moreover it's his first and "bu dong shi". Since I've chosen to forgive and give him another chance, can those who have violently object respect my decision? I'm not saying my girlfriends, and I thank you guys for supporting me so far. The things girls do for the guy they adore. Now you know why there's a song that goes, "If love is blind, I'll find my way for you."

More about my boyfriend... He is really one of the sweetest guy you will ever know. He will do anything for his girl. He would cook for you, change his bad habits for you, anything to make you happy and satisfied again. Though it became my habit to cook for him dinners and lunches. I mean, it was a natural instinct for me already. However, there are times where he would ask me to rest and he do the cooking. There are many other thing as well... Like going out to buy dinners, or sometimes when I said I need to go home to get something, he would accompany me. Stay til late and wait for my night classes to end then we go home together. Ok.. some may say that we're in Aussie, and we only have the 2 of us. Ok.. you can do that once in a while, but not all the time right? And even in Singapore, I go home alone too what. Don't give me the crap that we're only in Aussie.. Come on.. we have our own friends... He got his best buddies whom he always hang around with. I have my own housemates, and I'm never alone at home.

How many guys out there can actually tell their girlfriend their "out of this world" truth? I've known guys who are like that.. But they do not tell their girls at all. And this is a really selfish act. But he told me... But no longer have this intentions. And I can do a lot more. I've threatened, I know some of his secret stuff that I cannot tell you. He's so honest until I have invaded into his private space. He shares practically everything with me. I know it when I have crossed the line. And I really shouldn't have crossed the line. Guys, you have no idea what we went through during this short 2 or 3 months. You may say that I'm soft hearted and I must protect myself. And our relationship is so young and fresh. I've given it a chance. It's going to be a hard road.

Moreover, his whole family knows about me. Always asking about me... How I know? Thanx to Skype. On my side, only my mommy knows about his existance. My daddy will know his existance when he comes to Singapore.

The reason why I'm saying this, is that I want you guys to know that he is not all that bad. Just that one BIG terrible mistake that he made and that I happen to found out, I was really upset. I can actually make a lot of changes. And then again, everyone needs their space. And he is really treasuring his 2nd chance a lot now.

To this guy friend who called my boyfriend names. Haven't you did enough for me? You said it yourself that you had taken advantage of me. And you conveniently stays near where we always hang out. I do NOT have the car all the time. Sad to say, my girl friends are more considerate than you. You have pissed me off already a few times. But I have chosen not to show it and be nice to everyone I know. As I tell myself, why should I bother wasting my time being angry with someone like you? I would like to be nice all the time! But being nice has their limits too! And it's not for you to take advantage of! Some other people are pissed with you sometimes too. They dropped hints at you and you either pretend not to know or just act blur/pitiful. Girls are more vulnerable to a lot of crimes, and I'm sorry girls that I have to always drop you off at Novena. You shouldn't have the benefit of getting driven home. Say people, how about yourself? Haven't you being very indecisive and insensitive to the people around you? How they react when they are with you? But yet you don't get it and always sound self pitiful. I cannot stand it, I try to understand your situation. But I just don't get it still...

No transport home? Then go home earlier to catch public transport! Like in Melbourne, though Taxi is readily available, but it's really DAMN expensive. What we do? Try to catch the train home. Unless you are willing to spend money on CAB. I'm not aiming at those who are willing/knows that they have to spend money if they chose to stay out late at night Get what I mean? I really pissed..... The irony is that you told me to protect myself, I'm now protecting myself from YOU!

And yes, how would you feel if someone tells you, "Do you think you're really in a relationship?" When you conveniently says that you think that you can give it a try? Ain't you doing the same thing as me? I do like my bf in a way, that's why we're together. I'm sure you too. There will be rocks... I shall not say further.

OK.. I have nothing else to say liao... I hope this clarifies things about how I really feel about my boyfriend.

Thursday, December 02, 2004

Wisdom teeh extraction.... :(

Just a little update on myself...

I had 2 wisdom teeth, on the left side extracted on Monday afternoon. Luckily that day I ate as much as I want. Hehe.. I ate chocolates, I ate anything that I could get my hands on...I had bloody gums...

Oh well... Been eating fish porridge everyday....
  • Monday evening I had fish porridge,
  • Tuesday morning I had digestive biscults with milk,
  • Tuesday lunch I had fish porridge,
  • Tuesday dinner I had fish with century egg porridge,
  • Wednesday morning I had bread with milk,
  • Wednesday lunch I had fish porridge,
  • Wednesday dinner I had chicken porridge...
  • And Today!!! I'm going to have fish porridge for lunch AGAIN!

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....... Am I suppose to lose weight? Hmmm... I had durian cake last night though.. hehehe.. Was so nice and soft. Oh.. The other day? I had a piece of ferrero chocolate... Melted it in my mouth and bite the nut on the right side of my mouth.. Woo... hehehehehe....

Hai... I'm going to have another 2 teeth extracted this coming Tuesday morning! Ahhhhhhh Help me........................... :(


Looks like I haven't been blogging since I came back! Oh well... I see not much of a reason to since I'm back in Singapore.

Well, I have been talking to Darling everyday on the phone now. Even if we got nothing to talk about, haha.. but our conversation always seems to be interesting with no topics. :P Sounds psycho? Neh... it's call the power of love, despite whatever happened.

Came back on the 19 Nov. Hee.. In time for Chinny baby's 21st birthday. Why would I miss such an important date right? hee... I was so sly... Bleah... No one knew I was coming home except Pheli and Boon Cheong. Heard that Boon Cheong got so excited that he was dropping hints to Chinny. Hmmm... Bad bad Boon Cheong. Hahaha... :P Oh... Chinny baby was so touched and surprise until she.... hmmm kekekekekekekekekeke... I shan't say it here. Go read her blog. Haaa.... :P

Hmmm For the first week of my stay here in Singapore, I have been out everyday! hmmm Went out with Chewpeng, Wanxin, Poly friends, Salsa friends.. ha... yah... I can't remember what I did... But I know I was tired. hahahaha...

Hey for all those who haven't meet me ah.... You better! hahaha.. I'm just kidding. I just miss some of you guys! Hmm like another group of poly friends...... Perhaps like Kam, who's getting married... (sheesh), Shirley, Marcus, Jeremia, Ivy, May, Weiheng (where's my kayaking?), and many many more lah... the list just goes on.. You know who you are... So find a date that you're free and let me know! haha.. It's easier.. coz I'm always free... :P

Oh... I miss my DARLINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGg so so so so so so so sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo MUCH............ :'( Boo hoo hoo.. the nights are so different without him. oops.. hahaha... Yeah.... DARLING......... I miss your ban mee.... I miss your ever rubbish stories.... I miss your hugs...... I miss your... erm... EVERYTHING! You know lah.. We always talk on the phone... DARLING................... *For the rest... don't puke when you see this.. :D)

Monday, November 15, 2004

Saturday-13 Nov, Wonderful Day... Almost...

You maybe wondering why the word almost right? That's because...... DEAR WOKE UP LATE! Grrr... The shops here in Melbourne closes at 5pm. :( I don't know what time he woke up. But I remembered that we reached City at around 3+pm. And we reached our destintation restaurant at 3++pm? Haha.. ok.. my point is we reached city late. Though there were still a lot of people around.

We had Vietnamense food. I had a bowl of their beef brisket noodles, while Dear had chicken breast fillet rice. The food was not bad.. I had an avocado drink as while. Was nice, but Dear didn't like it. He had soya milk. :S

After which, we walked around city. Went to find JB HiFi. According to dear, they were having sales for DVDs. But they were closed! Sheesh, the Aussies are... Hmmm... I shan't say.. don't they wanna earn some money from us? Oh well.. We walked around the whole city.. Discovering where the 2 cinemas are... One of them was showing Alien vs Predator, the movie that Dear had been wanting to watch for a long time, before the exams. But didn't decide to watch because the next show was at 9pm. So we just walked around Chinatown, I look at clothings, Dear gave comments. Bought some dried mangoes and fish snacks. I went around the whole city into every gift shops to look for good birthday presents. Went ino David Jones and Myers. Didn't find anything that's good. Hmmm... Sad... We also went to all the CD/DVD shops in the city. But didn't buy anything. Coz all the shops closed so early. :S Didn't have the time to think about it and buy. :/ Went to Lygon Street to buy some ice cream. Had Caffe, Nutella, Rum and Raisins and Ferraro Crunch. Yumm.... The best waws Ferraro Crunch, then Rum and Raisins, then Nutella, then Caffe. Well, we didn't exactly like coffee flavour icecream.. hehehe.. oh well.. that was just like trying everything to see if it was nice. Oh.. there are many other flavours too.. Various fruits flavours and some other interesting flavours lah. hee... Most of which you will never find it in Singapore.

By the time we kind of finish walking around, it was almost 7.30pm. Then we were thinking why not we watch the 9pm, Alien vs Predator. Haha.. the funny thing was that we forgot where that cinema was... Walked one big round then found the cinema. Bought our tickets, then went to look for a place to have dinner. When we walked out, we realised that we walked the long way to the cinema from where we decided to watch the movie. hahaha.. so silly. Was funny....
Walked a little down to Chinatown to eat at this restaurant called the "Singapore Chom Chom". Hee... I think the people who owns the place are Singaporeans too. Hmmm... The wonton mee that I had tasted like home... hehehe.. The other place I had wonton mee.. didn't come close.. hahaha.. oh well... Dear had soya sauce chicken noodles.

Since Dear paid for lunch, I paid for dinner. Walked half way, then both of us need to go to the toilet. Haha.. Walked into one of the shopping malls, found this shop that had a really nice top! then again, the shop was close. So... CANNOT SEE and BUY! Hahaha.. :P Then we found the toilet! But the doors were locked! Sheesh.... :S No choice lor, have to "tahan" and walked to the cinemas first.

Thank goodness the toilets in the cinemas were not locked. Dear and I went to relieve ourselves. I was a little scared when I went into the toilet... :s No one was in the toilet and the toilets had freaky blue lightings. Argh.. hahaha... My imagination.. But you know the feeling when you're alone in the toilet in the freaky blue lights? Hmmmm hahaha.. oh well... I'm not really that brave when it comes to spooky stuff.

Went into the theatres, only to see another man sitting in the middle with his pop corn and drink. hahaha.. Dear and I looked for our seat which was right at the back.. Then again, I thought the back seats were a little smelly. We decided if no one were sitting in the front seats, we'll move. Well, when the movie was about to start, there were only 3 people in the cinema.. haha.. that's me, Dear and the other man. So.. We just choose a really good seat. hahaha... Then another man joined in the cinema beginning of the show. First time that Dear and I went to a cinema only to be filled with 4 people... :s... And not to mention the size of the theatre lor. Hmmm LOLz...

I guess you guys in Singapore already watch the show.. So... I shall spare the details of the movie. I guess it wasn't so bad. Was a little exciting at certain points, but funny at the same time when the predator was communicating with the lady. :D

The moment we stepped out of the cinemas, there was a street singer just outside singing for the public. He sang, "Here comes a happy couple walking out of the cinemas", in quite a nice tune. Felt it was a waste for this talent. Oh well.. we didn't waste more time. I was dead tired. We took the tram down to the train station, took the train home. Was really a nice day with Dear, with all the hugs, snuggles, kisses throughout the day. *blush* Oh.. not forgetting his crappy jokes... :P

By the time I got home, there were many guests in the living room. Chatted with Ika's new guy. He's quite a cool guy, he sings in pubs. Hmmm.. not too bad looking. :/ Anyway, we chatted about going to a latinos clubs. *Finally I heard the salsa word.. hahaha* Oh, and he sang in Hilton Hotel back in Singapore as well.. Cool... Oh well.. I had to wash up, take out contact lens and prepare myself to sleep over at Dear's place. I sleep really early almost immediately when we reached his place. Oh.. Dear has new housemates. Hmmm.... Never see them.. Oh... this time, we slept at the same time. :)

Holidays are here! Yippie!

Friday - 12 Nov

Finally, my dreaded exams are officially over! Luckily, mine was a morning paper. Could enjoy earlier. But poor Dear had an afternoon paper. Left he and poor Jason (who had 2 papers on the same day. One paper with me, and another paper with Dear.) to study while I headed for Safeway to buy more Sotong and something for me to eat in the afternoon. Had a German potatoe salad and chips and tuna fish. Hahahaha... :P

Took the chance to clean up my messed up room. Vacummed the floor, cleaned the table. Pack my notes etc... Also took the opportunity to do a long awaited facial. Hee... Time pass by really quick. Before I know it, it was almost 6pm! And I was chatting like a mad woman with whoever was online talking to me. People was asking me about my return date. Haha.. It sure spreaded like wild fire. But I hope it doesn't spread further, because..... hmmm Will say why the next time. hehehe... Only 2 good pals know why... :P besides my mom and Dear of course. :D

By the time I was set to prepare dinner, it was already 6.45pm! sheesh, and Dear was coming at 7.30pm. Ika invited us to go out with them that night. They were planning to go drinking.

I cooked some of my favourite sotong, recipe from my mom's cooking, by observation. hehe... nice.. but the sauce not thick enough.. :P and some cabbage with dried prawns and vermecilli.

Hmm Then the outing plan changed to go bowling. Wanna go, but Dear was tired. Then it started to rain.. I was qutie sian to go out in the rain. Coz I don't have an umbrella to be sheltered in. It broke by a thunderstorm when I was on my way to uni one day. :S So.. we didn't go. Hmmmm ended up watching TV. Forget what they were showing also. :D

I sleep early as usual.... Dear slept late again, because he wanted to listen to the radio station from Malaysia. His favourite program. Hmmmmm Oh well... :)

Hmmm what about last week?

Well, I haven't been blogging for a week already.. It wasn't that I dont wanna blog, but the other day, when I was blogging half way oh Wednesday, I got hacked.. sheesh, whatever I've writen was all gone!

So... hmm I don't really remember what I did for the week... I knew I haven't been cooking at all. Most of the time, Dear and I went out to buy take aways. We had food from the near by Thai take aways, which had quite good tom yum soups, but not quite good food. hahaha.. Edible lah... :/ The place is own by real Thai people. how i know? they were talking in Thai in the kitchen... hmmmm oh well... the people serving were thais too. :/

We also try food from King Fish. They gave us really big portions. I had difficultly eating all of it. We ordered a Seafood delight. They gave us heaps of chips, 2 fish bits, 1 scallop and 1 crab stick. Hmm... Or ordered something from our beloved Sunny's. hehe.. Oh well.. It was sometimes he paid, sometimes I paid. Hmm...

We didn't get to do a lot of things. Dear stay at my place for the whole week. We studied together. But we slacked quite a lot of times. I tried to push him to study in the day, while he tried to push me to study in the night. :D Well... I woke up early in the day, stare at my news, while he woke up late in the day, eat lunch, study a bit, then discuss what to eat for dinner, then study at night.. Then I sleep first. Then he sleep... much later than me. :P oH well... that was last week....

Sunday, November 07, 2004

More slacking


Well, Friday was another slacking day. Woke up late again with dear. Left my place in the afternoon about 2pm, went to Sunny's to buy take away again. I had Indian Mee Goreng while Dear had Combination fried noodles (sheng mien). Headed to Safeway to get his milk, then to Cargenie market to get some fruits. Bought some juicy pears and oranges. Bought 6 packets of instant noodles, a chicken rice mix, soy sauce and crab sticks. Went to Cafe 101 to buy some berry cheesecake and a chocolate mud cake.

Got home and ate our late lunch at about 3.30pm? Finished lunchie at 4pm? Slack around again. Tried the mud cake.. Dear didn't really like it. I kinda find it OK... :/ Took our usual afternoon nap. Woke up at 7pm. Slack for a while, bathe, had the cake for dinner, and we headed for Dear's place. Taking some pears, instant noodles and his milk along too.

When we reached Dear's place, he got HUNGRY. haha... Well, he did his laundry first, and we boil some spaghetti and I fry it with some red pepper, chicken (Dear seasoned it with chinese wine and salt.. Nice...), crab stick and egg. Surprisingly, it was not bad. haha.. Oh well... After that, he went to bathe.

After his bath, we chatted and got disturbed by his housemates. They are nice Singaporeans. We were discussing about our accomodation for next semester. Since I was going to be here earlier than all of them, I'll stay in the house alone. :( But I may get to use my housemate's car. hehe.. hmm... Oh.. the housemates are couple. :) The girl, asked Dear and I if we minded pets in the house. Frankly speaking, I don't mind, but I'm a little afriad of dogs. Don't blame me. I got bitten by a dog before, so... have a little phobia. I guess that fear got to go one day. :/ Well, our day just ended like that... I fell asleep.. hahaha.. then woke up again.. Coz someone wasn't sleeping... the sleep again... :/


Hmmm... Lets see, I woke up at 11am and laze around. Haha... then tried to wake Dear up.. But, he just couldn't wake up and keep saying give him 10 more minutes. Haha.. Oh well... Went to the kitchen at about 1pm. Haha.. Yeah... Lazing around used up a lot of time. :/

The menu for lunch was spaghetti. As in italian style. Boil the noodles, cooked some rice, because there wasn't enough spaghetti for two people, and made the sauce with some onions, beef and red pepper. Nice.... Really... Mixed the noodles with some rice, added the sauce on top, then added some mozzarella cheese.. Yummy!!! Haha... Dear washed up... hmmm

Don't know why I suddenly had this terrible headache. Like my brain is shaking inside my head. Argh... Dear made me some chinese herbs for headache, rested for a while, and I was alright. Dear took a shower. But had not much clothes to wear. :S His clothes weren't dry yet. Brought some of the wet clothings to my place to use the dryer. But damn it, some idiot in my house never remove his clothes from the dryer. No choice, have to use the fan and hair dryer to dry Dear's clothes. :( Hmm... I went to take a shower while Dear try to dry his clothes.

After bathing, we just hang around while waiting for the clothes to dry. While waiting, we played a parking game at Had a crazy time playing this. Was trying to beat his high score of 430+++++ Can't remember the score. :( My highest was only 410++ Can't remember the score too. :( Oh well....

Finally Dear's tee shirt was dry, but his sweater wasn't. The end parts were still a little wet. And he still went to wear it! :S Our plan was to go to Lygon Street for dinner. Want to take him to his place to eat pizzas. The place? Papa Ginos. They serve good pizzas. Yum.... We reach Papa Ginos at around late 8-9pm. Ordered Super Special and Ginos special, woooo so yummy delicious. Dear wanted to order another one. haha... But I couldn't finish... Could feel that my gastric was beginning to rack up again. :( Heck it... Bought some ice cream. Shit, got cheated, bought the wrong ice cream. Ahhhhhhhhh... :( Never mind, will buy the right one the next time. :/ Oh... Then we went to Brunettis to buy some cakes. Bought a tiramisu and a chocolate like flavoured cake. Looks yum... Haven't eaten it yet. Planning to eat it for lunch on Sunday...

Went home by tram, gees, then my gastric started to rack up. :/ Wanted to take the tram to the train station, but it started to rain, and I didn't want to walk in the rain. So we just took the tram all the way home. Was almost an hour's ride compared to the train, only take 20 minutes. Lean on Dear's shoulder. Was in quite a pain. Beared with it... Dear was so nice... Hugs, and pecks... Hmmm Trying to make me feel comfortable and knew that I was in pain. :S

By the time we reach our destination, it was another torturing walk back home. The night was so so cold. Dear was so nice again! hee... hugged me all the way home, felt slightly warmer. Told myself to bear for a while more. We made it home nice and soundly. Immediately took my gastric pills and took a nap. Told dear to wake me up at 12midnight for me to do the laundry. But I couldn't wake up at all. Only woke up at 3am. Coz Dear reminded me that I haven't take out my contact lens. Went to take out my contact lens, washed my face, apply whatever it needs to take care of my face. Dear helped me with the laundry. Then we went to bed. Dear managed to fall asleep, I was still rolling around. Went to transfer the laundry to the dryer half an hour later. The washing machine takes about half an hour to wash the clothes, but the dryer takes almost an hour. Didn't wait for the one hour, went to sleep immediately.


Just went to check the dryer, but the clothes are not really dry yet. Put the dryer to run one more time.. Oh well, that's all for now. Waiting for Dear to wake up. Then have cake for lunch. Haha...

Thursday, November 04, 2004

Slacking around...

I'm just waiting for Darling to come over for dinner. Cooked bee hoon with cabbage, carrots, eggs and stewed can pork. And some other secret ingredients. haha.. :P Oh.. and some veggies with mushrooms which I cooked for Ika this afternoon. She gave me half. Oh well.. Hmm... So... Bee hoon with veggies...

Was really down on Tues night. After Dear left for Jason's place to study... I was hooked on the Internet. Was chatting with so many people. And one of those people who made my day was Biaoda. He sent this video of me and Boon Cheong teaching him a move. Boon was doing all the talking... I don't know why I kept smiling. :) Was touched by what Biaoda said too. Oh well... Salsa when I'm back yah? Though I'm really rusty in Salsa now. :(

Then I was talking to my ex bf.... Sighz..... all the past... Sheesh.. Oh well... He and I are just friends now. Probably good friends since we kinda know each other quite well. Of course... :/ Racked up so much on the past too. Was disappointed in the relationship, close friends knew what happened. Oh well.. Too bad..

Wednesday was good... haha.. I woke up last, because I slept at 6am. hehehe... :P Woke up, cooked instant noodles for lunch, then cooked sago... want to master the act of cooking sago. haha. :P Tried the sago with some non-fat milk and palm sugar. Nice.. Yum.. hahaha... So cheap too! The whole packet of sago is only 99 cents and the sugar was at least $1.50. And so much. hmm... compared to the $4 ones at the restaurant. :S and it's hot.. bleah.. Mine is nice and cold. And I cleaned my room. Because of the exams, my rooms has become so dirty.. and Darling always coming to my room and sometimes walk with his shoes in.. *angry face* Oh well... After all this I did facial.. Haha.. mask, scrub, everything.. hehehehhe.. :P Oh well.. just pampering myself a little. Time pass damn fast man... before I knew it, it was already evening. Time to cook dinner. Made some chicken wings ( was so nice.. hehehe.. :P secret receipe) and instant soups :( Had a piece of cheesecake bought from coles. :/ Then Dear called me... Asking me to go to his place, despite having a paper the next day. He said he wanted company. :S I was wondering what can I do when I reach his place.. haha.. Oh well.. Didn't go until I went to wish Sarchin a Happy Birthday... Reached Dear's place at 10pm. Chatted for a while, then we took a nap together. Was suppose to wake him up an hour later. But he woke up before I could wake up to wake him up. Oh well.. Then couldn't sleep... laze around a bit.. while he studied and chatted with me at the same time. Hmmm Then "bu zhi bu juai" I fell asleep.. :/

Thursday(today) morning, of course I woke up first. Surfed the net for a while. And of all websites, I went to surf for Hotel 81. Haha.. And I saw they have links to Singapore food website like the makansutra and Singapore unofficial food website. Shit, I regreted going to the website man. I was so so so hungry.. :( I miss my chilli crab, pepper crab, scallop with brocolli, lobster. hahahaha... Started waking Darling up at 10am.. but he only managed to wake up after 10.30am. Hmm... We left his place together, I went home while he continue his dreadful journey to uni, to meet Joe and Jason to study last minute stuff. He got a paper today.. Poor thing...

Well, I slack for awhile.. Then Ika came home with veggies and mushrooms, and told me that she wanted to eat veggies, but asked me to teach her how to cook. Hmm She didn't have all the ingredients to cook the veggies lah. So I had to supply some garlic and oyster sauce. Glad that she enjoyed the veggies. She gave me half. :/ Was too much for me to have for lunch, so keeping it for dinner.

Went to Carnegie to buy some conditioner, nutella, milk, pocket and box tissues, carrot and eggs to put in the bee hoon, and take away duck rice for lunch. Yummy.. One of the nicest duck rice I've eaten. Really.

Then I slack again! Bathed, and slack.. hahhaa.. Shit lor.. then, go and prepare dinner. Shit, and Darling is only coming for dinner at 8+. :( I scared he hungry after exams, so made sure dinner was ready by 6.30pm. But... He choose to play table tennis with Jason. :/ Sighz.. OH well... Bee Hoon not nice already cannot blame me...

Made sago for dessert somemore.. Later.. he kena from me.. hmph...

till then...

Tuesday, November 02, 2004

I'm so so dead...

Today is a totally F***ed up day... I woke up early this morning to study for my data communications and computer networks exam. The exam was in the afternoon.. sighz.. was happily studying whatever the tutor said would come out for the exams. She said it so surely that it would be 101% that it will be in the exams, though she said 99%... sighz...........

It was so nice and sunny the whole morning. Was so hot until I had to on my fan too... When I walked out of my house, to walk to uni, it was slightly windy.. And met Dear at Jason's place to pass him my keys.. He wanted to meet me for dinner and wanted to wait in my room for me... And I had to borrow Jason's umbrella because the rain suddenly started pouring.. Was not so bad at first, and when I'm only 5 mins away from uni, it poured like a mad thunderstorm... It invented Jason's umbrella a few times.. I had to seek shelter... If not, I will be soaked.. and his umbrella will suffer the same faith as my umbrella. Just the other day, when I was walking to uni for my assignment interview, it was the same thunderstorm that broke my poor umbrella.. Now I'm without an umbrella. sighz...

I tried calling Eunice to seek shelter, but she was stuck in uni because of the rain.. sheesh.. Oh man... and I forgot which unit is Siong Ying is in.. and it would be quite weird for me to go to Siong's place to seek shelter.. Hmm... Anyway, when the rain will easing, I hurried my way to uni.

Walked to uni then to the race course. Yeah, my exams are held in the race course.. OH well... Was still rainy.. but wasn't that bad I guess. but worse conditions than in Singapore. Went to the exam hall with my jeans totally wet....... :(

During my 10 mins of reading time, I'm like... WTF are the questions talking about. It's nothing of the "cheem" stuff that the tutor was talking about. In fact it's all the memorising of all the simple stuff.. Okok.. Not really simple.. But I was really catch by surprise.. I didn't memorise anything.. But instead... Trying to understand what each concepts meants and applying it. SHIT... I was so dead. So So DEAD.... I was answering the questions basing on what I remember during tutor presentations, lecture talks and what I learnt back in NYP. Sheesh. That was how bad it was...... sighz.. I left the exams hall early too.. coz... Hai.......... Left one question completely blank.. 5 marks gone................ Don't know what the hell it is talking about. :( and I can't guarantee the rest of the questions too. :(

Sighz......... 3 papers down in 2 days!!! My poor overloadd, overworked brain.... And I'm not so brainy as well. haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :( One more paper to go.. and don't feel like studying.......... hai....................

Anyway, met Dear for dinner.... Went to Sunny's, ate combination fried noodles... Yum... Had a small bowl of sago.... cost $4. sheesh.. haha. but was dears's treat.. :P Went home and he helped me RELAX....... yeah.. so.. the day ended... quite good...........

Till then...

Monday, November 01, 2004

Oh no.. I can't study... :(

Alright.. I'm left with 2 papers... Had 2 papers today... Gees.. And my next paper is tomorrow! And I can't study!!! My brain is so so tired... And yet I don't want to sleep coz I know I haven't study today. :( Sheesh...

Am having this stupid runny nose.. No.. I'm not having a flu. It's the weather... Too much pollen in the air makes my nose crazy.. ARGH

Alright, about my next paper.. It's data communications and networking. It's a subject which you must understand and sort of memorise some of the answer for the questions. SHIT.. And I hate to memorise.. Bleah... Okiez... Just in case you don't know what I had today. I had System Design and Implementation, which require a lot of understanding and analysing, and system security and privacy, which require understand and some memorising. Bleah.. My brain is.......... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Oh well.. On the brighter side, Dear dear met me for lunch. Went to KFC. On budget meals.. Yeah, fast food here is cheap compare to normal food. Haha.. Normal food as in non-junk food. :/ He paid for lunch.. I only paid $1 for lunch. haha.. :/ Bought some minties from 7-Eleven for the next paper to destress.. haha.. Almost finished the whole mint.. :s

After my paper, went to look for dear... at Jason's place.. then went home............ and...... Did nothing! Too tired.......... Oh well.. I hope everything will be fine tomorrow...

Till then............

Sunday, October 31, 2004


Well, I have been busy studying for my exams. And it seems to amazing that I can remember what I learnt during lecture and tutorial just by simply reading my notes again. Everything seems to reappear. And I don't exactly feel nervous about my exams at all. I'm not sure if it is a good sign or a bad sign. I usually am nervous. Hmmm...

Besides studying yesterday, Dear was so nice to make me feel comfortable. I had an amazing time. Took a nap and woke up again to study. Dinner was good, had tom yam soup. Had some juicy pears too. Read a little of my notes and I was sooo sleepy. Haha..I guess the good dinner was taking a toll on me. :S I took a nap, and I almost couldn't wake up. Haha... Dear was trying all ways to wake me up totally, but I just keep saying "5 more minutes". :x hehehe... Then he decided to play this game he found online.. which had a scary theme. It was to spot the difference between 2 pictures. Seems nothing right? Until you found all the differences, a freaky pictures will pop out all of the sudden. I got scare and woke up from my dreamy mood. Haha.. I didn't even hear the sound from this stupid game. Because Dear was having the headphones on. Bleah.... :S *I'm a scardy cat.. :(* Still.. I got scared...

This early morning was also the sign of a warm weather coming too. At 2 am, 31 October, we have to switch all our clocks and watches to 3am. It is called day light savings. We have this in Melbourne because there's going to be more sunlight earlier than it is suppose to. Hmm.. Get what I mean? In summer, we have sun earlier in the morning, and the sun sets slightly later too. Interesting? Hmmm... Thanx to my housemate, Ika, for letting Dear and I know, if not we will be too early for our exams. haahaa.. :P

At this time, I also made a phone call back to Singapore. Wishing my best friend a Happy 21st Birthday. I wish you happiness and may all your wishes come true. Sorry I can't be there. And I hope that you enjoyed your party. :)

All back home, just a quick update. I will be in Singapore on the 19 Nov. I think... And I will be returning to Melbourne on the 3 Jan 2005.

Till then...

Friday, October 29, 2004

Oh I see...

So I see.. Friendster survey.. How many people actually read in depth? Hmmm.. Ok, I guess I'm wrong. But there are things that people would definitely see first in friendster, your profile and pictures. Do I need to say more? *smiles*

How about each time I open my wallet? What do I see? Doesn't it mean anything? My boyfriend did get jealous for a moment, but there's always other ways to solve the conflict. I have his picture in my handphone. Do I need to say more now?

I guess I'm more at peace since we're sending personal messages to each other rather than blogging which really sucky. Blogs are meant for us to express our feelings. Friendship should be resolved by thrashing it out. Then later put it in blogs. That's call communication. It's not communication when you put it in blog and expect people to read.

Blogs perhaps more like updating yourself and letting the people whom you care about to update yourself. Coz sometimes there is no way you can forever say everything that has happened for the day. Ok, maybe it's just me. I do need to get the mood to crank up stupid updates. Haha.. Oh well.. I guess everything should be fine for now I hope. :/

Till then...

Thank you everyone...

I'm really touched by everyone's actions and concern. I'm not trying to display any sort of how mean the person is to me. Just that I don't understand what went wrong with the friendship until it was writen on a blog and I had to find it out myself. And even if I had privately msged you, you've chosen to put it on the blog without answering much.

Well, this is my blog, and I will write things that concerns me, be it I took it from else where. Since it's already a copied and paste thing about me and people are not happy about it, if you want it as a real privacy, don't write it on a blog. A blog is an online thing and anyone can access it and read and who knows what will happen. *sheesh, am I getting technical here?* Exams.. haha.. Ok, I won't copy and paste anymore, and just write my interpretation of what the whole thing means. Oh well... Sometimes interpretation do get wrong. Others may help me with it. Oh well... :/

I'm feeling much much better now. You guys can say that I'm giving my guy one more chance. I don't wanna feel too bugged down by anymore broken relationships (friends or boyfriends or whatever). I just need to study now. He is still nice to me and appears repentant after the whole incident. He even planned what to do after the exams.. *hehe* Oh well... Will take things easy and see how things goes.. :S

You can say that we're back to the lovey dovey mood again. Where I cook, he cuddles etc. But we've been really busy and stressed studying hard. Plus the weather here is cold again, but the forecast says that it will be better soon. A max of 30 degrees on Sunday. Yesterday was a cooling 18 degrees. :S Nice weather for sleeping. LOL...

Just a quick update of what's about to come. I might be arriving Singapore earlier than expected. I don't know when, depending on which date I can get a return home ticket. If not, I will definitely be back on the 18 Dec and flying off on probably the last week of Dec of first week of Jan. That's because I have to do a summer unit that starts on 5 Jan and ends on 18 Feb. I will miss Chinese New Year at back. But I guess it could be worth it. I'll be getting my Bachelors by the end of 2005. *yuppie* And I most probably doing some subjects to be CISCO certified.

You won't hear much from me on the blog for the next 2 weeks or so. Will be studying, exams starts next Monday. 2 papers on that day.. *sobs* and another paper the next day. That is 3 papers within 2 days. Oh well...

Haha.. a note to a good friend in salsa.. I will try to comment back into my own blog, but sometimes I prefer to talk/chat to the person online so that I can get more understanding out of everything. Hmm get what I'm saying? *winks*So.. come online more often! haha.. Like I will be online that often.. But I will try! ;)

Till then...

Monday, October 25, 2004

If only you read and just ask me...

Come on.. I'm already stressful enough. I've told everyone to read to get themselves updated. I'm not that multi tasking. I've already told you... and this is what I get?

"Next, was the so called lousy friend that i knew i had become in the eyes of somebody. Overnight, i have downgraded from, a best fren to a normal fren. I always thought that distance wont affect a friendship, no matter how long, no matter how far, but guess i was so wrong. Marie, on the other hand, shown no signs of distancing even though shes also in australia. Disappointing i must guess. I guess i wont be contacting her for quite some time. "

I've been enduring the "I hate Alethea" this sentence for long. How about a person keep telling you that they hate you? Don't you think they have their limits? I've put this for really long. My world is already tumbling down enough. Don't I have enough already? I'm really stressed up ok?

"You saying me right? Sorry if you think I never update you. I'm really in trouble for my studies already. I haven't been msging ppl unless they msg me. And I attempted to msg you. But you gave me the cold shoulder saying that I never update you on my relationship? Come on. I told you already, you want you can read my blog. My relationship was like yours, that I have to find out for myself. You gave me the excuse that it might not be stable. Mine is not stable and problems are surfacing. And I do read your blog. I tried to give you support when I'm here. But this is what I get? Come on... Ok. So Marie doesn't show the distance factor. Right... And when I'm online and msged u? Now I don't msg you coz I know you're angry at ME again. What can I do? How can I update you? You keep saying you hate alethea. Then what? What you want me to do? Pls... can you put yourself in my shoes? Pretending you're taking my course?

I've also told my mom if you need help on your 21st, you can msg her. She is there to help you in place of me. Be it whether I've downgraded from your best friend to your normal friend, you're still my friend and I will try to be one."

Can you just think of the times we spent together instead of just one incident? And your part as a friend? I think I've been sensitive enough not trying not to hurt you. But there are always loop holes in friendship as well. There's no such thing as perfect rose. Come on.. sometimes when I msg you, you're in the office and complained last time that you're in the office and you need to work. Ok, you're msn is on in the afternoon, but I won't disturb you. Am I not trying to be tackful enough? Evening I msged you, all I get is the "I hate Alethea" Pls..........................

Just tell me what you want from me ok?
I don't know what feelings I'm getting. But things seems normal again. But the event will stay in my heart for sometime. I don't wanan bother about salvaging anything. Need to concentrate on my studies.

Sunday, I still went over to his place for lunch. We cooked together... Yeah, oh well... He cooked fish while I cooked the veggies. The fish was... hmm should i say that we are not familiar with the fish here. :S Then we studied together in the afternoon. I cooked dinner.. Don't know what's wrong with me also.. My chicken herbal soup was a little to salty.. my veggies was too salty.. sighz... Oh well.... I don't know if I forgiven him, but we did couply stuff. He took a shower before we head for my place and studied together and spent the night. Haha.. was so funny when he was taking his shower. :S OH well... details spared!

Came to my place, I read a little of my notes, while he continued studying.. Then I woke up at 2am.. Finding him talking on Skype with his mother. And he sent my pictures to his mother. Sheesh. Oh well... His mother commented that I was short. Oh well.. I am short what.. fat and ugly too.. follow my mom's genes.. shortie.... :S After that.. hmm sleep of course. :
Today, I woke up first.. as usual.. had my breakfast... talked to Soumya.. hang around.. then Darling woke up.. and we started cooking Tom yam soup together.. for lunch.. Let the soup boiled, while we studied.. the soup was not bad. but he added a little too much soy sauce. But it was still good. had some left overs for dinner as well... cooked a little too much..

After lunch, I went to prepare for my assignment interview which I screwed up last Friday. Don't know why.. he asked so many questions and I could answer all. sighz.. there goes my distinctions... the tutor actually said I could get a distinction, but because it's re-interview, I can't get it. Only perhaps settle for a low credit. Am disappointed, but there's nothign I can do anyway.. Oh well...

Boguht take aways for dinner. bought somemore starburst, mints for him and a bottle of coke and some milk. Had dinner at 6pm. then bump around a little... then he went home to study... and I'm here getting scolding from Chin Fee and Pheli. Pheli threatened to slap me if I don't do something. Chin Fee is just waking me up. How?

I know all my friends out there, you care for me a lot. But pls let me finish my exams first? I need time to think properly after the exams. I cannot think if anythign else but for my exams.. Just let me be in my wonderland first and study.. I know I'm being a fucking idiot now.. But.. yah.. I'm a girl.... I have the girly feelings... Till then.... I'll see how serious is he first with the relationship.. since it's slightly a step ahead now. His family "knows" my existance.

Sunday, October 24, 2004

Well, I don't know what title to put for this blog. I'm really hurt by what happened last night. I'm losing my concentration here. Tjun finally cleared my doubt about why he created another account of friendster. I'm really shattered. Will not state why here. It's too personal. Why does my relationship always hurt me? Is there something wrong with me? Am I not good enough for my guy?

My first boyfriend dumped me because he said that the long distance relationship was not working for him. Saying that it's difficult and all. And I really gave him so much freedom, I don't expect him to call me everyday, just chatting online is good enough. And I even allowed him to join ballroom dancing. What more can you ask of a girlfriend? I can say that he found another girl in Aussie then. Kept saying that it was not a third party... Anyway, he failed the "BIG" test. Well, he said that it's a big test for the both of us. Well, he failed it big time. I was really hurt, I put so much into the relationship and it ends up this way. I remember crying for a month. We never contact since. And I don't wish to either. I have no feelings for him anymore. They say that first love is the one that stays, for me, this one is DEAD.

Second boyfriend was quite nice. Except for who I am, but we broke up after 5 months. I didn't cry, though very sad. Even after the break up, we were still acting like couples which I HATED. I so longed to come Melbourne and throw the past behind. And we're still friends now. He talks about times when we were together, and I felt really akward. I don't like to talk about the past. And when I asked what was our status, he just don't answer me at all. And now when I'm in Melbourne, he's like saying things like "Why don't we get engaged when you're back?" and "What would your parents think if we get engaged?". Yeah, he did say before that he still loves me. But when I needed the answer from him the last time, he didn't even answer me. What the F*** is going on to my world? Why is it so complicated?

And now, my boyfriend... I don't know what to say. Wanting to tackle another girl back home? I'm putting so much effort into this relationship. Can't you see? I really love him a lot. Well, it grew from a like to love now. Only 2 months, yeah.. but we see each other everyday. Don't expect things don't happen.

Can someone just tell me what's wrong with me? Am I not good enough? I cook for my guy, cleaned his room, make sure that he don't starve. Gives him his comfort. Ok.. fine, I'm fat.. So? If you think my fatness bother you, then don't bother about me being your girl. Get the idea? I'm already trying to lose weight here. And losing weight doesn't happen overnight. It's hard to lose weight here... It just hard, I need a breather...

Saturday, October 23, 2004

Another lazy saturday...

Oh well, by the time Darling woke up, it was already 1pm. Gave him to wake up fully and wash up. By the time we left his place, it was almost 2pm. Had to buy take away from Sunny's again. I bought "Char Siew" rice and Darling had "Siew Yok" rice.

Went to Safeway and bought some fish, sotong, bread, chicken bones and chicken. Darling bought PURA milk. We bought Sara Lee chocolate cakes. Had a craving for it. Bought some veggies, onions and eggs from Carnegie Market place too. Went to the Asian Grocery to buy some tom yam soup paste and bee hoon and ee mee.

By the time we reached home was almost 3.30pm. Had our lunch and had couply time from 4 til 5.haha... oh well.. then he rested while I chatted online with my fav bro, Kok Fei. Chit chatted with Soumya for a while, had my shower, and Darling and I left my place at 7.30pm. Took the food to Darling's place. Cooked dinner together.. cooked eggs with luncheon meat and onions and stir fried veggies with dried scallops.

Chatted with Darling's housemates about sharing an apartment together. Was quite a good plan though. We could get a nice place at a good price. Will have to take a look at it after our exams though. :S Am quite excited about staying together and getting out of my current place. My housemates are nice, but there are ppl who just don't keep the house clean. Can't stand dirty places. Oh well... Got to study now. Till then....


This week is not too good for me. :(

Oh well, on thursday, my partner and I rush our SDI project, which involves java programming. Sighz and our due time was 6pm lecture and we were not even half way through. I had a misconcept that my partner had completed most of the report. But to my disappoint and shocked, it was less than half done when she showed it to me. :(I was thinking shit, we will never be able to finish it. The last time I had a similiar project, it took my group of 5 to finish it in one semester. And I had to finish it within less than 10 hours? What to do, I was practically cracking my brains to complete 5 ppl's work within the short period of time. My partner was there, just nodding if she understood what I was doing and contributed some ideas. The programming was not even half done. We only did part of the system. I don't have the time to complete it. I was already booked the week before for another assignment. And again, my partner said that she would do some work. Yeah, she did... Only linking up all the interfaces that I designed together. (-_-") I'm not saying that she is not hardworking, but she should have brought up earlier that she didn't quite understand what's to be done. She's a nice girl, I still enjoyed working with her. I would work with her again, but not repeating the same mistakes. Oh.. in the end, I had to run all the way to uni to hand in the assignment on time. Sighz, I almost had an asthma attack. Spring time has a lot of pollen in the air you see. Sigh...

Friday was definitely not too good as well... Dearie and I went to Uni together (yeah, he stayed over the night before). Went for my Eiffel interview. I have to redo the interview again. My tutor said that I was not in the mood for the interview. Saying that I wasn't up to his expectation today. I couldn't help myself but to cry. Was really disappointed. It was a group interview. My partner (another guy) was practically answering my tutor by saying "I think" in all his answers to the tutor. I was shocked to hear it. It's an assignment interview, and you keep saying "I think", sheesh, what will the tutor think. I was so shocked and didn't know what to say. Yeah, I did the coding with Tjun and Jason. Though I did the least coding, I more or less understood the program. But sheesh, I couldn't answer my tutor. And that part, I was explaining to Joe the other day. :( I really feel F***ed UP. sighz.. My tutor was really nice, he said that I was too stressed, because the day before I had to hand in another assignment, saying that I was too stressed and he understood that. The point I'm disappointed was that I don't think I will score as high as I want for this assignment now. I'm really feeling very sore.

Anyway, on the brighter side.... :) Darling and I went for lunchie together. As usual, he always makes me laugh with his crappiness. Oh well, he headed to Jason's place to study, while I went to Carnegie to buy some fish and some personal things. Yeah, was planning to steam fish. Called Dearie, and he was sleeping! sheesh... oh well.. I went home and cleaned up my room.

Topped up my hp and called Boon Cheong. Yeah, long distance call. Was nice to hear Boon Cheong again. Was his birthday. Quite sad that I cannot dance with him for his birthday dance. Sorry Boonie... :( But I hope when I'm back, we'll dance many many times ok? Including the bachata. :/

Not long later, Dearie came over to my place at 5pm. Was surprised, and he said, don't be surprise. :D He passed me his keys to his house. Went to my room to surf the net while I was outside busy talking to Soumya(housemate) and Rti(friend). Soumya was telling us how she and her boyfriend got together. SOOOO SWEET I tell ya. :) 5.40pm, I chased Darling out of my house. LOL.. to go for his lecture which starts at 6pm. :S

I went to darling's place to get a packet of rice and veggies to cook for dinner. Sheesh, when I saw his room, I'm like.. OMG.. haha.. ok.. so I cleaned his room, vacumm the carpet, fold the clothes, tidy the desk, washed the plates and mugs. Oh well...

Came home and started preparing dinner. Steamed fish with garlic, ginger and shitake mushrooms. Veggies... erm.. Darling cooked the veggies.. Tasted a little weird... boil veggies and the sauce was made of oyster sauce and kikoman soy sauce. yeah.. the soy sauce and oyster sauce don't mix well. But was still edible. Was quite disappointed that the fish was not too nice. Tasted fishy. I think it's not the right fish for steaming. Not familiar with the fishes here. :( But Darling still said that it was nice. And he finished it. :S oh well...

After dinner, I went to bathe. But was stopped by Soumya. She asked if I had earring and necklance to go with her dress. She was going for some function. She put on my purple crystal earring and necklance, it was nice, but wasn't outstanding enough. Lend her another pair of earrings, was nice and elegant. But she had to go and buy a match necklance. OH well... Then I bathed, and changed, packed my stuff and Darling and I headed for his place.

Was suppose to study.. But I only read 2 pages, and I fell asleep. :S Was only 11++pm then. But Darling was still busy studying 1 chapter till 3+am. Happen to woke up and see him. Had a nice little cuddle, then I slept again. :D

Woke up at 9am, to go to the toilet, found the lights on. Went back to bed again. Official woke up at 10am. Was tossing and turning in bed. Couldn't sleep. Starting studying.. Was quite a good progress I guess. Finished 2 chapters. Going on to my 3rd chaptere now...OH well... till then.... :)

*prays that next week goes well* got 2 assignment interviews and meeting the course advisor regarding my enrolment.. :/

Thursday, October 21, 2004

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Yesterday was not really a productive day. Went to uni at 1pm, but ended tutorial class at 2.3opm. Met Alan, Jason and Dearie when I was walking aimlessly in block B. Then went for late lunch with Alan and Dear. Had fish head bee hoon, Dear had curry chicken egg noodles while Alan ate chicken rice. Lunch was not too bad I guess, but I almost couldn't finish my food, was stuffing myself. :S If I didn't meet them, I wouldn't have had lunch either.

After lunch, I went to the library with Alan. He needed to borrow some database books. I went to look for space to work on so that Erandhi and I could work on our dreaded codes. We worked on some part of the logic, I guess I was the one who was typing the logic while Erandhi was helping me remember the syntax of java. Sheesh... :S Dearie came after that, he did his handheld assignment while Erandhi and I were studiously mugging on java. :/

Erandhi had to leave for her lecture at 5pm. I was left there to think of the logic myself. :( Oh well, I was trying to figure out some stuff. But time passed so fast, I had to go for lecture at 7pm. For the first time, lecture was so full of people. Usually, not many will attend the lecture. The lecturer went through the sample exam papers. Was quite pissed when I couldn't get hold of any of the handouts that the lecturer printed out. :( I was one of those who had been diligently going for lectures. This world is unfair. Tried to talk to the lecturer to post the handout on the web, so that more deserving students can refer to the handouts for revision.

Came home, had a quick dinner, look at the codes, And shit, I took a nap which ended up in a sleep. :S sighz.. I'm so dead....

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

Farked up Tuesday

Well, I just felt that today was a f***ed up day. Reached uni at 9am, attended Data Communications Lecture. Was not bad. But lecture was a little longer than usual, lost concentration for a while. It was a review lecture that's why.

Ended lecture at 11am. Msged Dear, thought that he was in uni having his lessons till 12 noon. But he called and said that he's at home. :( sad sad.. Had lunch alone at Caulfield Plaza, mixed sushi. Was not bad, but ate alone. felt a little lonely... :( Oh well....

Finished lunchie at 12 noon.. Walk to Blk B to look for labs so that Erandhi and I could do our java. Blk B was full man! Sheesh... Had to go to another block. Met Alan when I was on my way to Blk K. Went to block K and find a computer. Oh well, I was munching on Starburst again. :( Alan saw me with my starburst again. haha.. Oh well.. He went to Coles to buy me another type of gummy which was slightly more sour then other gummies. Erandhi came, and we worked on our assignment, somehow my codes which I was stucked with the day before worked on the version that she edited. Oh well.. crazy java. hahaha.. Dearie came to look for me after his class, helped me with the java coding, and I was not to disturb him while he was coding. Oh well.. it's working partly now, the display and stuff, I'm left with the logic.

Dearie and I went for dinner at Malaya's cafe. Had char kway teow and he had seafood fried rice. Went to Jason's place to pay off some debts, then headed home, showered, cuddle a while, then head to Dearie's place.

Did very little things on the java project. That's why I'm feeling F***ed up. I hope Erandhi has some good solutions. :S *prays*

Monday, October 18, 2004

Monday Blues?

Slept over at dear's place. Came home at 10.30am, wash up, bathed, and ate breakfast. Ate quite a lot too.. Since it was near lunch, I had more bread. Sighz, boring...

Spent the whole afternoon doing my java which I totally forgotten. Shit, I'm really in hot soup this time. I'm so tired. Don't understand why the codes that I wrote cannot compile. I'm too tired to debug it. The toshiba ppl called me today too, when I wanna fix my laptop. I have to fix another day with them, coz I need my laptop to do assignments. Oh well...

Went to uni at 5.30pm. Took a nice and slow walk. Went for lecture and had a unit review, which was nothing much. Talked about examinations stuff. It's going to be an online exam. Cool eh? OH well... Went to tutorial, went a little of the practice exam online. Had my Eiffel interview assignment changed from Tues to Friday. Because Joe forgotten that he had a tutorial at 12noon tomorrow. Oh well..

Am having tom yum INSTANT soup now. Too lazy to cook anything. Am so tired.. I think my eyes are getting worse too. Cannot see properly. I think it's because of too much computer. ahh... :(

Today isn't a good day for me lah.. Oh well.. I'm having my soup already then zzz. Wake up tomorrow then go lecture then do java again. :(

Sunday, October 17, 2004

Lazy Sunday...

Yeah, I do read comments on my blog. Thankie Chin, yeah, it's hard. Sometimes I wish I'm at home. And have someone to vent my stupidity to (my Mom). Just that my boyfriend and I are getting closer everyday I think. But there are still a lot of things to learn about each other. And I know that we're not perfect, which might lead me to some sort of jealousy. I never believe that a relationship is always rosy anyway. It's good to know things early then to know later. Let him know how I feel, which I did, clarify... Yeah.. I guess... At least I'm not hiding things from him. Oh well...

Haa.. I woke up the earliest among the 3 of us today. 10.30am. then Jason, 11am. Darling was the last as usual... I checked email.. Dont know why so long also. hahaha.. Jason and Darling cooked lunch.. Haha.. We had Ee mee and chicken burger pattie(dont know keep for how long already. LOL...) and some veggies. Oh well... After that we all headed to Darling's room to do our work. Hmm I came home at 3pm though. Could get much work done with all the "pian tai" things that was talking around in the room. :D

Neh.. I had to come home to do my laundry if not I have nothing to wear for the week. Okok.. to be more specific, it's no underwear to wear. hahaha... :P Helping Darling to wash some of his clothes too. He ah.. hai.. dont know how long never wash clothes already..

Ok.. I just ate some ice cream. hahaha.. oops.. Am going to Darling's place after the laundry is done. He's cooking seafood mee.. yummy.. *drools*

Sleepy Friday and Weekend

Friday was quite a slow day for me. Didn't do much things. Went to uni at 12noon, met Darling at 2pm. Had a slow "romantic" walk to Carnegie for lunch. Took us 30 mins to walk to our destination. Reached Sunny's and ordered Hokkien Noodles and Roasted Duck Rice as take aways. Lunch Take aways at Sunny's are cheap and good. Only $6.80 per take away. After which we went tp Carnegie Safeway, bought some chicken bones and chicken drumsticks. Bought some veggies from Carnegie Fresh Market and headed for our favourite Asian Grocery store to buy some Singapore Hainanese Chicken Rice Paste and Tom Yum Soup Mix. I bought some dried mangoes too.

Went home, made some chicken stock. Yeah, chicken rice was for dinner. Took an afternoon nap with Darling. So tired. I wonder why also. haha.. Woke up later see, Darling off at 5.30pm. He got a lecture at 6pm. I went online, and read Chinny's blog, and chated with her online for a while. Chatted with my hot salsaro Boonie too. I've been so out dated with all my friends. Feeling quite bad. My friend's down and I can't do anything about it. Sometimes I wish I'm in Singapore to help them. :(

oh well... started preparing dinner at 7.30pm. Yeah, wash veggies, cut garlic, cut ginger etc.. cannot say the whole secret recipe out. LOL.. cooked the rice at 8pm. Cooked everything by 8.30pm.. Waited for Darling to come home... *what does it sound like? chuckles...* We had dinner together.. and Darling washed up and we watch TV together. Superman was on, in tribute to Christopher Reeves. :( After TV, went to the room... hmmmm and SLEEP! hahahaha... No details spared... But was a fabulous night. We both enjoyed the night... :)

Yesterday was another sleepy and lazy day. I woke up at 12noon. Washed up, took a shower. Was done by 1pm. Then Darling woke up. Washed up, and we left for Carnegie at close to 2pm. Went to Safeway to buy some squid, prawns and fish. Bought veggies from the market, and went to the Asian Grocery to buy some crab stick and "ee mee". Went to Sunny's again (I wonder if they regconise us.. LOL) to buy Roasted Duck Rice (for me) and Nasi Lemak (for Daring).

Went back, had lunch at 3pm. After which, dont know why we took a NAP again!!! haha.. woke up at 7pm. Sheesh... Quickly woke up... went to my kitchen to get the seafiid and noodles and the Pepsi Max and went to Darling's house. Darling was the chef for the night. He cooked seafood Tom Yum soup with EE mee.. nice leh.. hehe.. Oh.. we only managed to have dinner at 10pm though.. Bad timing.. coz I was going to get my gastric again. Darling's hosuemate asked if we wanted to buy any computer stuff. Darling bought a web cam from him. Then Jason came over too.. To look at the computer stuff, and bought a hard disk case. Wanted to do work, but my stomach was hurting quite bad. Yeah, didn't manage to save the gastric in time. The juice has already come out. And the worse thing was that my gastric medicine was in my place. :( Lie on the bed trying to sleep.. Darling was so nice.. hehe.. hugged me, and showing his concern. Feel so loved... :P And I finally manage to sleep peacefully at 4am, when Darling came to ask me if I still had pain. And he hugged me sooo tight. :P oops.. yeah.. and we fell asleep, leaving Jason to his work.. until he fell asleep as well...


Thursday, October 14, 2004

Alright... He's half forgiven...

Was interrogating him when I was in the bus going home about what I saw on the Internet. He claims it's nothing, and I "pretended" to throw "little lady's temper". Then he asked if I had dinner, and I haven't had dinner yet. Oh sigh... He was nice enough to save some dinner for me.. I was almost too lazy to go over, because I had to bring my own laptop so that I can do whatever I want while he do his work. He was so nice to offer to come over to "pick" me up and carry my stuff. And the night was so so so so cold. How to refuse? Shit... He even fed me dinner.. Sounds sweet huh? Am I too soft hearted? Oh sigh again... Or am I just being over sensitive? Oh sigh again...

But I guess I will never understand certain things. I still have so many things to learn. Maybe I shouldn't trust people so easily... nono.. I shouldn't say that, I should just be a bit more wary about my surroudings here.

Felicia Cho (just in case ppl dont know who I'm talking about, she's a good friend in the hot salsa scene.) just called me to check if I was ok. Yeah, of course I'm ok. Just a little sad when i find out things that I'm not supposed to find out... Just like the song "I've never been to me", the line "I've seen some things that I ain't suppose to see". But I already saw it. How? Hai...

I'm so lazy to do my programming.. hahaha.. shit... :P But I guess I will manage it tomorrow and over the weekend.. BLEAH..... haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Dont know what kind of stupid feeling I'm feelign now also.. SIGHzzz.. Loved, confused, frustrated? haiiiiiiiiiiiiii I wish I'm more perfect...

What's the meaning of this? Tell me someone...

I really don't know what I have done. Why does someone you love needs to hide things from you? Do I have to find it out myself? I'm feeling quite hurt at the moment. Is it so shameful to be with me? Ok, I admit I'm not the prettiest or sexiest girl around. I don't have the 33-24-33 kind of figure. No I don't have the height 170cm. Ok, fine, I don't have all these, then why ask me? I have feelings too. I'm supposed to feel secure. Yeah, I do feel some love sometimes, but I don't feel the security.. What should I do? Why does all my relationship end up like that? I HATE it.. Did we rush in too quickly? FARK.......................................

Shit, my eyes are so red... And no.. I won't cry. I won't cry for any guy. No way.

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

Crazy Melbourne Weather...

It was a HOT and SUNNY weather yesterday, 30+ degrees. And at night it was still quite warm, at 20 degrees. I had to on the fan to sleep. Imagine that... and today... it's a cool and wet day.. at 24 degrees and now, night time.. it's a freaking 11 degreese.. How crazy is that?

The night is so cold. I was so cold standing waiting for the security bus to send me home after lecture just now. The bus made me waited for 45 mins. If I know that the bus will take so long, I would have walked home. At least I only need to take 30 mins to walk home. :S

Gees, I've been thinking in lecture that I wanna wake up early tomorrow to go jogging. I need to lose those extra flabs man.. aiming for a 33-24/25-33 kind of body.. someone like it. :( sighz.. oh well.. I've cut down my snacking too.. Except that I have ice cream in my freezer now. opps.. :P 2 tubs somemore... 1 is dearie's and 1 is mine.. wah ahahahhaha

Shit, I'm a little hungry now, but I don't feel like eating.. how how how?? Shall I go to sleep? hahaha.. maybe ha... talk finish to pheli on Msn via web cam first.. hehehe.. so fun.. :P

Long time no BLOG! And Blogger has been pronouced as BURGER by DARLING.. haha

Sheesh, I haven't been updating my blog at all. Basically, last week I was packed with doing all my stupid assignments. Oh well, I'm glad that now I'm left with one more assignment.

The temperature went up to 30 degrees yesterday man... Was so hot, the sun was up, and the wind blew all the warm air. Was so so tired, the night before stayed at Darling's place to help with part of his assignment. Well, he helped me with another of my assignment mah... Oh well.. I didn't do much really, he still did most of the work. :( *so useless* Tried to take an afternoon nap, instead of waking up feeling better, I felt even worse. Had a BIG HEADACHE. I still had to cook dinner.. bleah... Cooked corn with carrot and onions soup, double boiled with chicken bone and black pepper beef. Darling still managed to sleep through the HOT afternoon. :S *piggy*

At night was spent doing my data communication presentation, while Darling did his documentation for his project. Of course, I helped him a little by correct his "PURRRRFECT" English. hehehe... Somehow we slept only at 4am in the morning. Documentation may seem easy but it is the most tedious part of the project.

Today isn't a very good day for me. Woke up and had to do this project reflections for Darling, print my presentation slides and handouts which gave me so much problems. And I didn't even get to print out my lecture notes for today somemore. Sigh... I guess the presentation was not too bad. But still... Oh well, didn't do as well as I wanted, coz I'm so so so so so sleepy.. Thanx to SOMEONE... An hour and a half later, had this system security test. I think I didn't do as well too.. didn't study finish. :( On the slightly brighter side, I scored a reasonable score for my presentation in system security.

Am currently at block K of uni, waiting for the next lecture to start. Saw Mel and Eunice going for lecture. Yeah... That means, I'm typing this blog to pass time. Haha... Using Darling's laptop. My laptop cannot be brought to Uni anymore. :( Coz keyboard not working properly. :( And stupid Darling is smelling me as if he is a MAN *Actually like a curious little puppy*. Don't know.. So "pian tai".. hahaha..

Oh k... lah... he thinks I'm insulting him *yup, he's beside me now..* but I'm just saying that he's cute? haaha... oh welll..... that's all for now I guess...

Friday, October 08, 2004

Sunday 3 October...

Lets see.. Daring slept until it was time for lunch. haha.. I prepared bak kut teh and french beans with carrots and red pepper. Was glad that Darling like it.. The bak kut teh was really nice. Boil the pork for some hours so that the flavour could come out. but the french beans was a little too oil because I didn't look propery.. bleah...

I did some documentation for my software engineering assignment. Almost completed them... I think Darling went home to bathe... and i really cannot remember liao. hahahaha

Thursday, October 07, 2004

KTV on 2 Oct, Saturday!

Darling spent the night at my place this time. Well, I woke up at about 11am and darling was still sleeping. I went to Carnegie market alone because I had nothing to cook in my fridge. Darling just continued sleeping *pig*

Bought some chicken wings, diced beef, pork chop, red pepper, corn, onions, carrots, chai xin, ka na and french beans. So heavy. :( Had to log them all the way back home. Bought lunch home, hainanese chicken rice for dear and char siew rice for myself. I didn't do much work... Dear and I started to fall asleep again.. hahaha.. afternoon nappy. :P

Woke up slightly later, went to Raymond's place with Mel to go KTV at Boxhill with Raymond(duhz), Tricia and Jo. Edwin couldn't join us in the end. He had to do assignments. Oh well.. Raymond let me drive his car from his place, Lygon Street, to Boxhill. Felt good driving again.

Had dinner at this Korean BBQ place at Boxhil, but we didn't BBQ because we didn't want to smell of food later. :P We share a bowl of miso veggie soup, chicken and pork. Was good, kinda ex though. Spent $11.40 there.

This time we started KTV earlier than the last time. We started the ball rolling at 8.30pm. Jo almost couldn't get into KTV because she couldn't prove that she was 18. :( The irritating people there say she cannot go in unless she got prove that she's of near our age. Bleah... They didn't believe that she was in Monash unless she showed her ID card. Oh sighz... Oh well.. in the end, Tricia somemore left her re-enrolment letter in her bag. Haha.. So Jo showed that to them saying that she's from Monash too. Haha.. Heng Singapore only allow above 18 to enter the university. :P

KTV was good.. Over ordered the food and drinks. :S Most of us wasn't in form too. Oh well, was still a good time spent.

Raymond allowed me to drive again.. hehe.. to send Mel and Tricia home, then let me drive home. By the time I reached home, dearie, who spent the evening at Jason's place had dinner and don't know what else they did, was waiting for me at home. Yeah, he had my keys for that evening.

Oops... Lets see.. Back to Friday 1 October 2004

Haha.. I haven't blog for so long liao.. Cannot remember what I did also... I think Friday was not such a happening day as the other days.

Lets see, I spent the night at Darling's place.. Slept till lunch time. If I remember correctly, he cooked lunch. But I don't remember what we had. LOL... Darling had to go to uni for some project meeting at about 2pm and I went home to call the Toshiba support office in Melbourne. In summary, they said I had to bring my laptop to the place and let them analyse what's wrong with the laptop. Oh well... Kinda shitty, the place is about 1.5 hours away from my place. And I don't know where the place is. Ppl have been telling me drive there.. Yeah right, do I know the roads here well? hmmm... I will wait until week 13 or so when my assignments are all completed, then I will go with Lawrence who also need to repair his laptop.

After calling the support people, I went to Carnegie to buy a USB keyboard. If not I do not need to do my assignments already. Haha.. Oh well...... I bought a thumb drive too. To replace the one that I lost. :( In total I spent $18 on the keyboard and $70 on the 256mb thumb drive. Went to Safeway to get some of Darling's favourite Allen's mints and bought Tim Tam too. Wanted to know how it taste like. hee.. Oh.. bought "xiao bai chai" to cook for dinner too.

I can't remember what I did. Remember helping Phelicia to add her friend's blog into her blog page as well as adding a tag board so that people can comment. But time passed by really fast. I cooked pork for dinner.. so sad, darling didn't like it. :( Oh well.... I think I ended up watching TV while Darling used my computer space... and later.. we had our couply time. ;)