Alethea's Haven

good bye

2011-05-25T22:17:00.001+08:00

Today-10.16pm, he says I go ahead with my blogshop business & seperate, go our own way.

2011-05-24T23:37:00.001+08:00

I'm still crying...

Why? I hate this feeling. I feel miserable.

movies

2011-05-24T19:51:00.001+08:00

You asked if I want to watch Harry Potter. Even though I said no, my heart is dying to say yes. I'm hurt, I want us but I'm hurt that my brain is saying no to you. Each letter typed, I feel so pain that eye droplets are about to drop anytime. And we never fail to watch Harry Potter together. I want to watch Fast 5. And you know I always look forward to any non horror movies with you. Now I want to watch Fast 5, I only think of you to watch with. I guess I will miss Pirates of the Carribean. I really asking myself, did I enjoy gathering with my friends without you? I really don't think so. That time you were too busy to join us, and I even left them halfway to look for you. I'm so confused.

Lost and lonely

2011-05-24T19:38:00.001+08:00

I didn't say I don't want to follow you, but I only want to have the option to be able to travel back frequent to spot check on my young business. I'm so sad, even at this stage I'm told I'm under your consideration even after the proposal. Did I really treat you badly? I really didn't unless when we argued and I need cooling time and ignored you. How can you say you do not have friends? I thought if we can buy a house here soon, we can settle down. But I'm wrong. To you it's just like living in a pigeon hole. I really don't need you to spend money to buy me a car. I only want a home for the both of us. It's a simple request that all girls want. Sigh... Am writing this pathetic post when I'm on the train going home. I'm already so used to having you around. I look forward to our long awaited holiday to Melbourne. The Hokaiido trip to see sakura and lavender, and so many surrounding things here reminds me of you.No wherebyo vent my sorrow except this pathetic old blog. It's so diffiult to look happy but I'm dying internally. I haven't slept well. My eyes are too tired. I think I'm fated to remain like this forever.

Personal blogs

2010-06-18T14:15:00.002+08:00

Dear Readers,

I'm writing my blog to http://aletheang.blogspot.com this blog would still be around, but more for music purpose. :)

Thank you for reading.

你最珍贵 by 张学友 & 高慧君

2010-03-18T09:16:00.001+08:00

矜持 by 王菲

2010-03-14T12:56:00.002+08:00

Sighz

2010-03-13T23:45:00.001+08:00

Why does it hurt even trying to move on?

我不快乐

2010-03-07T12:07:00.003+08:00

过了那么多天，我已近把我的空时间花完了。。。

星期一没做什么。。。回来玩电脑游戏。
星期二，跟同事一起去学煮日本餐。。。我报名这课的时候，我们还没吵架。还以为未来可以一起煮。叫一些好友来撤撤热闹。。。
星期三，像每个星期三一样，打羽毛球。。。我没有兴趣跟他们喝水，聊天。搭了地铁车，巴士回家。不知为什么，我的眼觉得很累。心也不懂跑去那里了。:(
星期四，我跟秋萍和 Marcus, 一起吃晚餐。我介绍 Marcus 给了秋萍。秋萍正在找房。Marcus 问我，及时我要找我的。。。我不能回他。
星期五，秋萍来了我的家，给她一些笔，她不用买。我有很多笔，从大学毕业没用完。我们也玩facebook游戏。。。本来，我想找Chin Fee，去跳 salsa 舞。可是，我没有心想去，我的心很累，眼也很累。我又继续玩 facebook。我也看到了许多不该看的。另一个朋友申请了HLE, 准备买房。。。咳。。。 :(
星期六，我跟了同事去唱KTV, 吃海鲜晚餐。一天就这样的过去。跟她们时，有觉的一点快乐。最后，也回了老心情。咳。。。

我也不年轻了，没有那么多力气想了，心也累了，眼也因为哭了太多，也累了。。。就让父母帮我吧。。。

My exact feelings - Perfect Song

2010-02-28T11:27:00.003+08:00

Karma by Alicia Keys

Weren't you the one who said that you don't want me anymore
And how you need your space and give the keys back to your door
And how I cried and tried and tried to make you stay with me
And still you said your love was gone and that I had to leave
Now you're Talking bout a family
Now you're saying I complete your dreams
Oh
Now you're sayin I'm your everythingYou're confusing meWhat you saying to me, don't play wit me, don't play with me
Cause....

[Chorus:]
What goes around comes around
What goes up must come down
Now who's cryin', desirin' to come back to me
What goes around comes around
What goes up must come down
Now who's cryin, desirin', to come back

I remember when I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you til 3 o'clock in the 'morn
And when you came home you'd always have some sorry excuse
Half explaining to me like I'm just some kind of a fool
I sacrificed the things I wanted just to do things for you
But when it's time to do for me
You never come thru
Now you wanna be up under me
Now you have so much to say to me
Now you wanna make time for me
Whatcha doin to me, you're confusin me
Don't play with me don't play with me
cause

[Repeat Chorus 2x]

I remember when I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you till 3 o'clock in the 'morn
Night after night knowing something goin on
Wasn't long before I be gone
Lord knows it wasn't easy believe me
Never thought you'd be the one that would deceive me
And never do what you're supposed to do
No need to approach me fool, cuz I'm over you

[Repeat Chorus]
Gotta stop trying to come back to me

[Repeat Chorus]
It's called Karma baby and it goes around

2010-02-27T11:30:00.004+08:00

Calling out your name,
Your face is everywhere.
I'm reaching out to you,
To find that you're not there.
I wake up every night,
To see the state I'm in.
It's like an endless fight,
I never seem to win (oh-oh)

I can't go on,
As long as I believe...
Can't let go,
When I keep wondering...

Chorus:
Where are you now?
What have you found?
Where is your heart,
When I'm not around?
Where are you now?
You gotta let me know,
Oh Baby, so I can let you go.

I can hear your voice,
The ring of yesterday,
It seems so close to me but yet so far away.
I should let it out,
To save what's left of me,
And close the doors of doubt,
Revive my dignity.
But I can't go on,
As long as I believe,
Can't let go while I keep wondering.

Chorus
Where are you now?
What have you found?
Where is your heart,
When I'm not around?
(Tell me) Where are you now?
You gotta let me know,
Oh baby, so I can let you go.

I should let it out,
It's time to let you go,
Oh baby, I just wanna know...

Chorus x2

Where are you now?
What have you found?
Where is your heart,
When I'm not around?
Where are you now?
You gotta let me know,
Oh baby, so I can let you go.

Where are you now?
What have you found?
Where is your heart,
When I'm not around?
Where are you now?
You gotta let me know,
Oh Baby, so I can let you go.

莫文蔚&张洪量-广岛之恋

2010-01-29T17:47:00.001+08:00

張：你早就該拒絕我　不該放任我的追求　　給我渴望的故事　留下丟不掉的名字

莫：時間難倒回　空間易破碎　　二十四小時的愛情是我一生難忘的美麗回憶

張：越過道德的邊境　我們走過愛的禁區　　享受幸福的錯覺　誤解了快樂的意義

莫：是誰太勇敢說喜歡離別　只要今天不要明天　　眼睜睜看著愛從指縫中溜走　還說再見張：不夠時間好好來愛你　

莫：早該停止風流的遊戲

合：願被你拋棄　就算瞭解而分離　不願愛得沒有答案結局

張：不夠時間好好來恨你　

莫：終於明白恨人不容易合：愛恨消失前　用手溫暖我的臉　為我證明我曾真心愛過你　　愛過你　愛過你　愛過你　愛過你　愛過你　愛過你

Zhang: You have long been the refusal of my pursuit of laissez-faire, I should not have The story I want to leave can not afford to lose the name of

MO: Time stumped back to space easy to break 24 hours of love is my beautiful memories to last a lifetime

Zhang: We have come across the borders of morality restricted area of love Enjoy the illusion of happiness misunderstood the meaning of happiness

Mo: Who is so brave that as long as today, not tomorrow, like the parting Watched love slip through our fingers also said good-bye

Zhang: insufficient time to properly come to love you,

Mo: the game is long overdue to stop airflow

All: willingness to be abandoned even if you do not want to understand the separation of love with no answer to the outcome of

Zhang: insufficient time to properly come to hate you

Mo: Henren not easy to finally understand

All: Love and disappeared before the hand warm on my face for me to prove I really love you Love you love you love you love you love you love you

萬芳 - 新不了情

2010-01-29T17:38:00.003+08:00

曹格 - 新不了情

心若倦了,
xin ruo juan le
If your heart is weary
泪也乾了,
lei ye gan le
And your tears are all dried up.
这份心情,
zhe fen xin qing
This feeling,
难舍难了。
nan she nan liao
Is hard to relinquish or forget.
曾经拥有,
ceng jing yong you
I once used to have,
天荒地老,
tian huang di lao
All the time in the world.
已不见你,
yi bu jian ni
But I haven't seen you,
暮暮与朝朝。
mu mu yu chao chao
For many nights and many days.
这一份情,
zhe yi fen qing
This love,
永远难了
yong yuan nan liao
Is forever difficult to resolve.
愿来生还能,
yuan lai sheng hai neng
I hope in our afterlife,
再度拥抱。
zai du yong bao
We can embrace again.
爱一个人,
ai yi ge ren
Loving someone,
如何斯守到老,
ru he si shou dao lao
How do you remain faithful till you're old?
怎样面对一切,
zen yang mian dui yi qie
How do you face everything,
我不知道。
wo bu zhi dao
I do not know.
回忆过去,
hui yi guo qu
Reviewing the past,
痛苦的相思忘不了,
tong ku de si xiang wang bu liao
The painful memories are unforgettable.
为何你还来,
wei he ni hai lao
Why do you come then,
拨动我心跳。
bo dong wo xin tiao
To make my heart race.
爱你怎么能了,
ai ni zen me neng liao
How is it possible to stop loving you?
今夜的你应该明了,
jin ye de ni ying gai ming liao
Tonight, you should understand,
缘难了情难了。
yuan nan liao qing nan liao.
It is difficult to escape fate,
just as it is difficult to dissolve love.

Happy on the outside, but...

2009-11-13T16:04:00.003+08:00

I'm actually a very sad person on the inside. I don't understand what happen to all the good old manners that our parents that have been passed down? It's seems like those who are nice and polite and seems to know how to be human on the outlook, they are actually very irritating, don't want to let you know. Or maybe just want to keep everything to themselves or don't want to inform you at least until promptly indirectly. Sighz... I'm actually quite hurt after the effort I've done. It seems unappreciative. Everything still evolves around money. Sorry I'm not that rich although I've already tried my best to subsidise as much as possible.

I don't see myself as a petty person. I believe my torlerance level is pretty high, but something that has been accumulated for so long, I finally throw my patience away and keep my silience.

It seems that all that was planned and agreed earlier are all talk. I'm quite disappointed that I have to find my way home from NSRCC. How can I ask another when I thought everything was settled? Really lost and disappointed but yet I have to put a strong front.

And yet I cannot talk to anyone about it. I can't even put the full story here. I have to bottle up everything if not people think that I'm bad mouthing or don't like them or whatever crap story.

Sometimes I feel that it's nice to be alone. No worries, no headaches... sighz...

Stop pushing me

2009-10-19T10:52:00.002+08:00

I'm no superwoman damn it!

I'm so pissed at my demanding HR. As if they can do a better job! If so, they don't need me to be around at all! Can't they be a bit more appreciative? How did they ever become HR? No bloody PA skills at all? Do they really care about our staff welfare? PI! NO! So last minute give me the info, and they want it out by the next day? All they do is complain to my manager if I don't do the job? !@#$%^& lar! You think your things is the only one in the whole world I have to do meh? I already put it out within 2 days! Not forgetting your bloody errors you gave me and I have rectify them for you one by one? Just use what I gave you first. The improvements will come in later when I have more time! I seriously think they need to revise their approach. I'm absolutely sure I'm not the only one in the whole office pissed at them.

Why is it that I have to purchase a flat that's not within my means? What's wrong with the further away places? It's more reasonably priced. Not that I'm psychoed by people. Of course who doesn't want to stay near their parents? Am I nuts not to? I just cannot afford? And just because I cannot afford means cannot marry? I'm going to breakdown soon. !@#$%^

I'm so upset with work and family and future being. My immune system has gone down and I can't talk to anyone about it. I'll just get blast again. So frustrated, so upset, and I'm about to tear... Signing off... *sniff*

Weddings

2009-10-13T20:21:00.009+08:00

I keep getting wedding invites these days... haha... I'm happy for the couples no doubt, but I'm getting broke as well.. hee

Firstly, there's Weiheng's wedding... I did the make up for her as well...

To view more, you can visit my portfolio blog at http://alet88.livejournal.com

And next I had Clarence Ti's wedding... But NO PICTURE! Haven't got it from Clarence... hahaha...

Then in August, I attended Annie's wedding... And all my wonder colleagues and ex-colleagues...

And Andy Ong's wedding... I have a card photo... but I'm lazy... Maybe I'll post that later... Hahaha...

In October... Ah Boon and Sharon's BIG day! With David, Anthony, Alan, Lai, Cassidy and my darling... heee

Last but not least... Shihui's big day! She was gorgeous... But the picture I have doesn't do justice to it. She was tall, sexy and hot!!! And... It was like are union/gathering for my JC friends... haha... I wonder who is next. :x

Hmmm Looks like I wore my Bonito Chico dresses to all the weddings except Ah Boon's. Should I continue wearing them? hahaha... Oh well... Hope you enjoyed the pictures! =)

MC

2009-10-13T14:01:00.002+08:00

I'm on MC and I'm in the office. What the hell am I thinking? haha... OH well... the day is passing quite fast today... So... Blog more later!

Stomp

2009-10-10T13:55:00.006+08:00

We went for Stomp yesterday and I totally enjoyed it very much! =) Good company and good food... I can't complain more. :D

Even after cam-whoring at the hawker, it continues in the theatre... haha.... Nice backdrop... =)

And vainity takes it place... hehe...

My Portfolio

2009-10-10T13:39:00.001+08:00

I'm currently slowly building up my portfolio in make up and hair. Do recommend your friends to me yah? I won't be charging expensive. ;)

Glen Medeiros - Nothing's Gonna Change My Love For You

2009-08-31T13:33:00.001+08:00

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now, touch me now
I don't want to live without you

CHORUS:
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead a way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now, touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Baby don't you break my heart slow...

2009-08-30T19:09:00.001+08:00

Words by Vonda Shepard
Music by Vonda Shepard & James Newton Howard

I like the way you wanted me
Every night for so long baby
I like the way you needed me
Every time things got rocky

I was believing in you
Was I mistaken,
Do you say, do you say what you mean
I want our love to last forever

But I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

I like the way you'd hold me
Every night for so long baby
And I like the way you'd say my name
In the middle of the night
While you were sleeping

I was believing in you
Was I mistaken
Do you mean, do you mean what you say
When you say our love could last forever

Well I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

You would run around and lead me on forever
While I wait at home still thinking that we're together
I wanted our love to last forever
I was believing in you

Well I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

A false front

2009-07-28T15:31:00.002+08:00

WHY? I'm soooooooooooooooooooooooo frustrated...

Why does one department don't understand the meaning of saving money? Once one department buys, the rest also want to buy. It's a trend! And don't you know it's BAD for the company to spend unjustified money? I just don't understand. And guess who is the purchaser? ME! And guess who receives all the chasing from vendors? ME! They are just so selfish. Just want comfort. Might as well take the money and give me a pay raise! I'm so PISSED!

It's really a bad day. Quarrel with him. I'm so hurt and heart broken. Just need to be alone.

Disappointed myself

2009-05-11T22:22:00.003+08:00

It doesn't really pay to be good. I helped to organise a buying online shopping order together, but I end up disappointing myself even more. I ordered 2 qty, but only came 1 because of all the confusion of all the other orders which was added on later. Now I'm stuck, I love the item but yet only come in for one. Then my friend how? What a mess. I won't order on behalf of anyone anymore. Only come to know to make myself miserable.

Keep your social life and lose weight

2009-04-13T20:37:00.006+08:00

I came across this article on MSN and I think it's all true and it's the reason why I have been losing weight as well... I will give my constructive comments in the article...

Get clubbing

Getting down on the dance floor is not only great aerobic and cardiovascular exercise, it generally means you'll spend less time standing at the bar with the temptation of buying another drink.

Eat a well-balanced dinner

Filling up around 7pm before you go out will prevent you from succumbing to pub or bar snacks and takeaway temptations later in the evening.

Drink in moderation

Opt for soda or tonic water rather than soft-drink mixers. Add a slice of lemon or lime for extra zing! Skip the kilojoule-packed cocktails for a glass of wine. One (200ml) medium glass of wine has a POINTS value of 2.

Dinner parties

If you are invited for a dinner party, it doesn't necessarily mean a night of abstinence, just a little bit of self-control.

Hold back on pre-dinner snacks

Nibble on olives in brine, rice crackers, or celery and carrot sticks with a bit of hummus. Avoid handfuls of chips or lollies as once you have a small handful, you'll develop the taste for more!

Eat slowly

When it comes to dinner, enjoy the taste of your food by eating slowly and savouring each mouthful. Chewing food well also makes sure you generate saliva that produces digestive enzymes in the stomach. Try sipping water between mouthfuls and place your knife and fork down for a break.

Fill up on vegetable side dishes

Try salad or steamed vegetables instead of garlic bread.

Drink plenty of water

When a dinner party is in full swing, wine glasses are topped up abundantly, so drink plenty of water in between to avoid dehydration. Remember it's okay to pass on topping up your glass.

The pain

2009-04-13T11:06:00.003+08:00

I'm suppose to be doing my work now... But I simply cannot concentrate on work well today. My eyes are so painful... Red and sore. My beautiful eyes are ruin.

I enjoy my work. But I'm starting to question my own abilities. Am I up to it? I'm assigned to quite a number of projects this year. I am very honoured for the assignments as I think that I was assigned to them because people think that I am capable to do so. I am very touched an honoured although I may not show it.

I'm currently in-charged of the newly re-vamp Intranet. I have done quite a number of modifications and many more to come to make the Intranet more user friendly and better in terms of ease of maintenance for users. Actions includes designing, programming, layout, logical thinking, analysing the needs.

I'm also helping out in the SQC Results team. I'm suppose to be gathering data from the Operations side. Operations include Leadership and Processes modules in the SQC proceses. The duty would include analysing how we fair and what are the loop holes or why we faultor in certain areas.

In ERP, I'm assigned to helping out in the technical section which I have a lot to catch up. I have so many things to learn and have to be extra cautious when implementing new changes/updates into the ERP so as not to disrupt users testing/usage. In whatever context you wish to call it.

Last but not least, all my daily routines. Back ups, server maintenance, users support and help, occasional purchasing. Duties include covering for Singapore, Thailand and China offices. I'm just thinking, Andy can do it, so can I.

Wow, after typing so much, I'm just wondering big time how I can manage. Esp on the Intranet which I have many more ideas to implement to ease and help the company to better manage on our product listings, updates etc.

At home, house hunting has be so difficult. If it's not too expensive, then feng shui not good, then house too small, house too old, house odd shape, house too shack, house too noisy and the list never ends. So many quarrels and disagreements.

Having type so much... I'm now feeling very useless and incapable. How many times I have bring back my office work, and thinking of my own house work... I don't know...

House Hunting

2009-04-12T15:47:00.003+08:00

House huntying is such a chore... I'm so tired viewing at all the houses. The prices are still pretty high even though the market is bad. If only I have the cash, increment in pay(which is pretty low chance), or have some sort of grant or sponsorship.

Anyway with good deal in terms of my following criteria:
1) Plus minus $400K
2) Above 90sqm (4A type)
3) Good condition, but if the place is in bad condition, we don't mind if the owner is willing to sell it at low value.
3) Areas preferred: Bishan, Toa Payoh, Boon Keng, Whampoa, Kallang or Tiong Bahru.

Let me know if you have any of these! =)

Spring Fusion

2009-04-11T11:24:00.003+08:00

I haven't been doing a lot of make up lately... Anyway, this it's spring time, this photoshot are all spring inspired... Hope you like it!

7 April 2009

2009-04-07T23:55:00.010+08:00

Yeah I have been neglecting my blog once again... I'm working on a new blog shop selling shoes... do look out for that and support yah? =)

Anyway, I just celebrate my birthday today... and I shall let the pictures do the talking...

Me camwhoring before my date with my family...

Venue: Lawry's at Paragon

The Menu

Beautiful settings... with Nice Chandellers!

Check out the french maid uniforms that the waitresses are wearing! Cute!

Sherwyn and Tjun had dinner sets... includes soup, appetizers, main course, dessert and coffee/tea...

Soup!!! Tiger Prawns and USA Scallops for Appetiser!

Main Course: Pork Rack.

What Mom, Dad and I had...

Spining Bowl Salad -> Very refreshing, must try! And California Cut with Mash Potatoes and Yorkshires' Pudding -> Very nice... can't explain.. Go try when you have the money yah?

White HorseRadish the compliment the steak.. But I think the steak taste better on its own.

Sizzling Mushrooms to share! We had 2! =)

Highlight!!! The chef actually brought out his mini "pit" to serve us our steak there and then on the spot! How cool is that!! On the spot, they will asked how we like our steak to be done and it's done there and then! Fresh... I like it... Something different from the norm...

These salt and pepper are specially done by Lawry's to compliment whatever food we had. We were recommended the pepper to be added into the soup for the extra "punch" but I am allergic to pepper. So I didn't try. Try it the next time and let me know!

One big Happy Family with a Very Happy GIRL... Yes STILL GIRL OK! :D

My mini birthday cake by Lawry's. ^^

Desert's for Mom and Dad. Very nice hazelnut chocolate!

Beautiful toilets are important for pampered girls like me. HAHA... ;)

Highlight of the day! My birthday present from my precious finaciee... A pair of Brillant Rose Diamond earrings from Soo Kee...
I'm totally touched.

A very tired Birthday Girl... One year older... Hopefully it means one year wiser too! *winks*

I'm not well

2008-09-21T00:30:00.004+08:00

I'm SICK. I have migraine again (for 2 days straight, TMD)... and my stomach is giving me the same old problem(F***m sleepless night again). Maybe I'm dying but no one cares.

I played a game which I have never played before in my entire life because I don't believe in poking into people's personal things/space but played for the sake of entertainment. I got a question which I will not ask anyone and I do not want to be asked that question, because whatever the answer I said, which is true will not be believed and it's an uncomfortable question. It's not about nothing to hide question, it's a personal space problem. Whatever answer I gave, which I didn't give and left the blank for your own interpretation. A person once asked, and I replied, "If I said yes, will you be insulted? So good-bye" And I owe no one an explanation expect my parents and him.

I always leave a question for myself. What's my purpose on Earth? Only when there's trouble, then I'm needed? Ok, to a certain extend it's an honour because I'm a known trust worthy person though my outlook appears to be cheerful and bubbly. But only when talking advices are needed I'm called for? I prefer shopping 1000% more than pubbing and clubbing though I love to dance. BTW, I haven't dance for a DAMN long time.

It's such a F***ed feeling that I have to ensure the happiness of one to ensure my own happiness. Then, when a person don't want to answer does not mean ANYTHING. I'm not an open minded person, and I am uncomfortable with "open aired" questions. I appear to be open minded, I am open to decent occasions, but not to personal matters. IT'S NOT OK. I do not share things I DO NOT WANT.

Just a tip? Do not judge a book by its cover. It will apply well for all...

Where am I headed this weekend?

2008-07-29T21:31:00.000+08:00

Redang! Celebrating one and only soul/sole mate's birthday. No one can stand in our way.

*muackies* Baby! :*

Tax Filing

2008-04-15T13:54:00.001+08:00

I am actually not suppose to blog at this time because... I'm in the office. haha..

Anyway, I had lunch in because my lunch break was taken up for some maintenance job. And I surfed the net and lunch at the same time.

I realised, I haven't been blogging for such a long time! :D Yes I know I didn't blog for a period of time, but I didn't realised that it's been so long. Anyway, if you're curious to know what I've been up to, I'm still working as an MIS Executive at the same company.

Oh yeah, my title... I didn't receive my tax form yet. Hmmm either that I don't have to fill in. Or... I'm exempted to fill in because my salary hasn't changed for 2 freaking years. (Yeah, I'm looking into better pasture to gaze on. Have 2 recommendations already, but somehow, I like my job here. Oh what the hell right?)

Tax phone lines are busy... busy... busy... Panic Panic Panic... How I know? Yeah, I know I'm suppose to pay tax, I know I'm suppose to have a letter.. But where the hell is mine? And only realised that today is the last day. Grrrrrrrrrrr

hai... I shall end here and think of what to do first.

Blog again... another time... (if I remember)

Lasik

2007-08-01T21:29:00.000+08:00

Unlike my other friends, I'm not really good at blogging... So... straight to the point. I did... Lasik.

Yeah, did the surgery on Sat. 28 July 2007. I went to The Lasik Surgery Clinic at Paragon. I must say that not that the service is 100% good, but at least, the girls are quite friendly, looks young and pretty but not bimbotic. *Thank goodness* I would say I'm quite satisfied with the whole thing there, except for the waiting time, it's TERRIBLE... Because it's SO popular, that it's such a crowded clinic.

First I did the suitability test which was totally FOC. They just did a few machines to test my eyes for degree, astig degree, thickness of cornea etc... And duh, they found me suitable. Oh, for those who want to do, you can probably go to them to do, since the suitability test is free. Yah, and I learnt that not everyone can do lasik. Your cornea must be thick enough to continue going for evaluation and then surgery.

Then duh again, I went for my evaluation test on the 26 July 2007. Well, they did the same test as they did for me during the suitability test but in more detail. Do Do Do... Wait wait wait, then I got to see the doctor. My Surgeon is Dr Marc Tay. Very nice, charming man, spoke softly and gentlemanly. Haha.. After see the test results and looking at my eyes under the microscope, he recommended me either to do Standard Lasik or WaveFront Lasik. Basically, I have a little astig(1.25 on each eye), so Wavefront was a better choice. But if I'm not too fussy about my astig, I could just go for standard. But of course being me, I want the best, I went for Wavefront. Evaluation took 3.5 hours waiting pls evaluation.

So, 28 July was the day. I went nervously to the theatre with my mom. Yeah, mom spend all these time with me through the lasik procedures and waitings. The theatre was cold. The nurses did warn me about the theatre being cold, so I did bring a jacket and wore jeans. They still clothed me in their sugical disposable clothes. And I had a cotton cap on to keep my hair away from my face. I really didn't like the waiting at all. I still had to wait for another 30 mins before my surgery. Imagine, I'm already in the theatre, already nervous, and they still made me wait. For what? Just for them to confirm that everything's OK.

So, in the theatre with Dr Marc Tay. I just sit on the chair, and they adjusted the chair to make me lie down in a comfortable position. First the had this plastic things to stick my eye lashes up, which at the same time stop my eyes from closing. And at that time, I thought he was going to pull my lashes out. Ha. :P Next, he put another plastic cover over my eyes to keep the other area of the eye dry and cutting a hole for the laser to laser my eyes. Next he applied this surgical equipment that holds on to my eye ball. It helped to prevent my eyes from rolling too much. Sounds scary huh? I was scared lar, esp the part where the thing was holding my eye ball, but it wasn't painful. Just a little uncomfy which I told myself to relax...

Next, the surgery. Mr Tay did let me listen to what the laser sound was going to be like. It's like just tapping sound. Nothing much. Then came the real thing. They applied numming eye drops on my eyes, and told me to stare at a red blinking light which I did... Then I went blind for a few seconds together with a buzzing sound, then my vision totally went BLUR. Then the next thing I know, I heard the tapping sound, which was the laser sound. Slowly, my vision could see the blinking red light clearer. I was excited, but scared. :P I was like a stone, didn't dare to move or blink. It lasted only a few seconds. Then Dr Tay told me that the laser was done and he was going to wash my eyes. Then during that moment, I felt that my eyes were swimming. Haha... Funny feeling. I don't know how he did it, but I remember seeing some cotton on my eye. Oh well, then I saw my cornea flipping back! haha... Yeah, then he covered my eye with a zero degree contact lens to protect the cornea that was cut for the laser. That's for the right eye... Then he did the same thing to the left eye... Haha.. duhz...

The whole package included the medical starter kit which consist of the anti biotic eye drops, one box of refresh eye drops, 2 eye shields and an instruction sheet for the medications and list of things you can and cannot do after the surgery. And I cannot wash my hair for the first 2 days. But mom say don't wash hair. Cannot say no to mom, so no gym for me the whole week. Went to Jean Yip yesterday to get my hair washed by the students. Only $5! oh well...

I think I've wrote enough for now. :D

Feeling Angry

2007-07-17T15:49:00.000+08:00

These few days I've been feeling very very angry. No place to rant it proper. I'll have to keep in in my egg shell until it's cracked

2007-07-10T17:58:00.000+08:00

My current fav song: Beautiful Girl. Like the tune lar. ;)

Beautiful Girls lyrics

My celebrity look alike... and don't laugh. :P

2007-06-14T17:16:00.000+08:00

Blabbering...

2007-05-10T15:46:00.000+08:00

Ok... Lets post some pictures and let them do the talking...

Taken at one of my assignments for NUS talent quest. My model.. Her Lips not done yet... :D I did for another dancer too... But I didn't take pic with her. :(

Left to Right: Janet, Claire, Chiawling and Me.

They came for a demo which involved me demotrasting how to get instant skin radiance talk. Chiawling was the model. I did a simple plain, natural make up for her too. ;)

I'm in the process of doing up the Beaute Joint website. Be patient with me yah? ;)

Extinct?

2007-05-09T10:10:00.000+08:00

Neh... It's just that I've been too lazy to update my blog that's all...

A lot of things happened... Lets start with the more exciting part... To me at least. :D

Dear dear has finally, officially transferred from Accenture Malaysia to Accenture Singapore as of 1 May! Yippie!! Yup yup, I'm really excited about this whole thing...

He came down together with his parents who came down for holidays. And No... his parents were not here to help him settle down (of course I know lar, they didn't really see where he's sleeping mar... :P), more like meeting up with some friends who are here and a little sightseeing. They were here only for the weekends, arrived Saturday 2am, left Sunday 4pm.

Sat was more like a day for Dear for this medical check up for his employment pass. My mom brought his parents for morning coffee, and after the check up, it was nearly lunch, so mom brought us for a dim sum lunch at Paramount Hotel. Really nice! Go try! :P

The rest of the afternoon was spent meeting up Dear's parent's friend, went for coffee chat chat... and relax at their hotel...

My parents then brought them for seafood dinner at the Indoor stadium. Had a feast man... Sorry didn't take pics.. hee.. Was too busy eating pepper crabs, chilli crabs, bamboo clams, baby squid and the list goes on.. Wah hahahahaha.....

The next morning, we overslept. :P Left his parents at the hotel, but... his parents called their friend and they went out! :P Then had lunch at my place. Mommy cooked her famous chicken curry without coconut, abalone, ngoh hiang, home made char siew, and his parents, paiseh, bought roasted duck. :P

2 families went out to see houses. haha... :P The afternoon was just over very quickly... Then had coffee at an old coffeshop in Chinatown, then his parents left us.

And that was that... Over just like that... really fast...

Where's Dear's staying? On my bedroom floor. hahaha... Yup yup! For now lar... =)

I cannot stop my itchy hands...

2007-03-07T09:32:00.000+08:00

Had a craze over accessories... these are my loot:
From http://cherylbianca.blogspot.com/

From http://angelicious-creations.blogspot.com/

I'm addicted......

2007-03-05T14:03:00.000+08:00

To buying accessories from my friend Bianca and her shi fu Jacqueline!

I've bought Red rose from Bianca(See her blog at http://cherylbianca.blogspot.com) and I'm thinking of buying this from Jac(See her blog at http://angelicious-creations.blogspot.com/)!

Any sponsors? Hint... My birthday is coming. :p

Check this out

2007-03-02T09:35:00.000+08:00

My dear musically inclined friends

An old friend from Uni sent me this web page... http://thrillingwonder.blogspot.com/2007/02/we-dare-you-to-play-these-scores.html

Pls let me know if anyone can play the scores. I would very much like to learn how you play this piece and how it sound like... hee...

Thank you!

Oh, this friend also sent me another webby to check out... http://www.stefandidak.com/office/index.php looks quite nicely interesting too. :D

2007-02-27T16:51:00.001+08:00

I'm disgusted by this entry... http://izreloaded.blogspot.com/2007/02/smrt-suicide-mass-rapid-transit.html

Whoo!

2007-02-14T16:43:00.000+08:00

Don't you just love and hate Chinese New Year?

I have been soooo busy that I haven't got the time to meet friends, blog, nor enough sleep. Hai... Needless to say, cannot wake up in time to go to the gym in the morning for my workout.

Haha... Anyway, just a little update. I'm opening my make up and facial services from after Chinese New Year onwards. That is 22 Feb. If you need to do facial before that, pls call me and let me know. I've named my services as Beaute Joint for the moment. I might change it in the future. :D

Oh, upcoming services will be home made goodies. But that would still take sometime to establish properly. Hehehe... Just a sneak, the home made goodies will include Home Made Bak Kwa, Home Made Taste Alike Famous Amos Cookies. Possibly, Authentic Nonya Kueh Lapis and Prune Lapis. Heee..... So.... do keep reading my blog! heee....

Updates

2007-01-30T12:54:00.000+08:00

Sorry I haven't been updating for more than a month now.

Been really busy with a lot of things. I'll update as much as I can, though I can see from my shoutbox, not many been reading here. :D

Anyway, let me just update you guys with what I'm been busy with. :D

1) I'm busy with my work in the office. Am currently working on a marketing website for my department to let the world know what we're doing. Haha...

2) I'm busy with starting my business. Yup... I'm going to start a home freelance business. As most of you know, I've learn make up and facial and have been updating myself every possible opportunity. :) I'm going to start giving these services at good rates. :)

I'll let you know if I have come up with a website. :)

3) I'm also partly training to teach these skills to the public in a school, Hana, at Chinatown plaza. Do come and support yah?

That's all from me now!

HAPPY 2007 Everyone!

Stress. very stress

2006-12-12T00:46:00.000+08:00

I haven't been having time for myself. Everywhere around me is stress from all walks of life and relationships. Stress everywhere.

I wish I can a lot of money and go shoppng(retail therapy), tour(scenic onces), or move out and stay on my own.

But at the same time I cannot do it because of all whom I care so much. Sighz........ I'm always wondering, asking myself, what have I done to deserve this.

Everyone likes to nag, scold, critisize, but never like to listen properly to what I have to say. :(

GovernmentWare 2006

2006-12-07T13:07:00.000+08:00

As some of you may know that I was involved with an exhibition at Suntec called the Government Ware 2006 from the 21 Nov to 23 Nov. Basically it was about systems that the government use for security and other security systems. It was really quite a good experience knowing about the so many products available in the market. Good eye opener.

Before that, I went shopping with Chiawling. She was kind enough to bring me to Bugis and showed me the place where she bought some really nice blazers, nice enough for both work and play!

Here are the pictures!

Left: Our team (L to R: Ben, Me, Ramon)

Left: Peiling, a chio bu and me.
Left: Joris and Me

Left: Ramon and Joris
Of course we did our work. :P

Daddy's birthday

2006-11-26T23:41:00.000+08:00

This post is kinda late but never the less... It's better late than never!

We went out to celebrate Pop's birthday at Jumbo(The RiverWalk) last Sunday. Dear was also around to spend the day with us. :D Yup, as usual, I took some pictures.

The Food!

The people. :P

And the most important of all, the CAKE! :D

Sattahip 31 Oct to 10 Nov

2006-11-26T22:36:00.000+08:00

Wooooooooooooo Been a longgggggggggg time since I last blog. I shall start with writing about my Thailand trip. As most of you know that I went to Thailand to work. Basically my colleagues and I went to Sattahip, a shipping dock to implement an RFID system there. It was ok working there, but not the weather. It was scotching HOT!!! I shall now let the pictures speak for themselves. :D

That's me outside the container. And no I wasn't trying to look cool, but the Sun is terrible! Look at the next pic!

See the heat? I'm burning there. See that well defined shadow? BLEAH.. HOT

Well, the only good thing was that we had good lunches and dinners everyday! Drooling already? :D Well, this is just part of it. :P

My cosy bed... Not the best but sleepable. :D

And this is the view of my room for 2 weeks. :)

I'm down with...

2006-10-27T17:10:00.000+08:00

a flu and tonsilitis(Is that how you spell it?) since Wednesday. No I didn't play until I fell sick. I think I caught it on the coach when I was coming home from KL. It was raining and the aircon was at full blast. Damn...

Anyway, sorry to those who called me but I can't meet you. I can't talk properly and not so nice to meet you when I'm not well.

Oh well, I'm recovering and dearie is coming tonight at 10pm! YEAH.................

15 Sept- MOS night with colleagues

2006-09-28T10:04:00.000+08:00

Heee... This entry is very the late... But never the less, I guess it's a little worth mentioning. Had a good time with my colleagues, but I didn't like MOS that much. The music and crowd not exactly to my liking.

Anyway, we were playing with their camera phones and as usual, I stole the pictures from Chiawling with permission. Hehehehe. As you can see, the pictures are more or less modified to her blog. I don't have the pictures lar, so no choice but to copy. :D

I thought I look quite... Good here? I don't know if she touched it up or it's just me. :P:P:P:P:P

This is the group of us who went. Clockwise: Ramon, Chiawling, Me, and Andri(Whose face is cut off)

Estee joined us later that day. But I already left when they took this second picture. :P For those who know me long enough, I'm not a night person. :D hehehehe...
Left to right: Chiawling, Estee, Andri and Ramon.

Maybe I'll go to Clarke Quay again another day. Got a lot of good restaurants there. Heee...

I'm feeling mean...

2006-09-27T09:26:00.000+08:00

Glad that Paris Hilton is finally treated like any normal human being. My usual MSN pop up on the latest gossip showed that she is charged for drink driving. Hopefully she will learn not to be such a spoilt brat anymore. :P

Busy yet Fun Saturday!

2006-09-26T13:10:00.000+08:00

Pictures courtesy of Chiawling. I grabbed it from her blog. Hahaha... Opps, sorry...

I have a wonderful weekend!

Sat, we went to East Coast with mom and Dear. Meet my good colleagues there. Ramon, Chiawling, Boon Hong, Waty and many more. Somehow, thanx to the host of the day, I was saboed to be one of the team leaders to the telematches. I must really say we played very well!We played that catepillar chair game, memory game, tug of war and dog and bone. We won the first 2 games, came in 2nd for tug of war(we played against the logistic people, no way to win man... and they were all MEN! Sheesh...) but lost the dog and bone(all don't know how to play) Haha... Anyway, we were overall champions! Heee....

Mom had a good shoulder massage there, I was busy enjoying East Coast Park with Dear. And playing with my colleague dog. :D

After the whole event, we headed home to shower and head down to Suntec for Daddy's company event, family movie. Hahaha.. We watched Miami Vice. Was not a very fantastic movie. Didn't enjoy it much. Not recommended...

Evening, went for dinner with Sishi, Yan ying, Christon, Cuilin and boyfriend to celebrate YY's birthday. I don't have pictures for that yet. So will post it later when I have it. ;)

Sorry...

2006-09-08T10:02:00.000+08:00

But I don't like someone. Good for her that she is being punished for something. She's is such a spoilt brad. Sorry for those who like her. I just don't like the way she behave. As if she owns the whole world and the world owes her a living. http://news.ninemsn.com.au/article.aspx?id=85748

I'm back........

2006-09-04T11:16:00.000+08:00

From KL just in case you don't know. Hehe... I had a wonderful time!

Arrived KL at 11pm, was 1 hour early but dearie was already there waiting for me and welcomed me with his warm arms. *I like the feeling... * Went home (his place) and he had his oyster omellete (I bought from Newton, he likes it) with his Dad and Sis while I was having my shower. Had a good cold sleep.

Somehow I woke up with multiple eyelids! ARGH!!! Oh well, no choice. Had mee hoon kway for lunch. YUM... :D And we headed for Port Dickson! Haha... I don't know why by the time we reach our hotel it was 5+pm. :P ok, we did some hotel hunting there. We settle at Guoman Hotel. Was really the nicest hotel there. The swimming pool was great. And because this was quite a last minute decision to go swimming, I had to buy a cheap swimming suit. haha... Not very ex lar, normal price I think. About S$30 for the swimming tankini top and beach shorts. We had sooooooooooooo much fun swimming and playing with water. Hahaha... :P

Was quite late when we left our room for dinner. Went to the hotel restaurant to see the buffet, but the spread was that fantastic and was quite ex. RM67+++ per pax. So we drove out and found a seafood restaurant. Got quite a lot of people, so thought it would be quite good. We ordered couples meals. Only RM60 for 2 of us. We had steamed crab, butter prawns, stir fried lala, top shell in thai salad, stir fry fish fillet in spring onions and fried sotong. Yum! Was so much... And yet we ordered pizza hut. Haha... That was for our supper/breakfast. Went back to the hotel to watch Lake house on DVD. Hmmm I feel asleep after that and he continued playing Resident Evil.

Woke up late on Sunday again! Haha... We played a little table tennis and whacking each other. Haha... We later went to the beach for a walk. Had ice cream there too. And checked out of the hotel. He then drove me to Sungei Wang to buy my make up box for my freelance make up assignments. And went home for more crabs! haha... His dad is a great cook! Was yummy, comparable to that in any seafood restaurants. hee... Poor Robbie cannot eat, he will probably choke himself. But we did shared durians with Robbie. Haha... Poor boy, got to get caged up for a while because he will bark at the baby who's visiting her grandparents. Hee........ She always look different whenever I see her. Not sure if it's the same baby in the first place. Haha.. :P

I'm going...........

2006-09-01T09:46:00.000+08:00

to KL again. Hehehehe.. Don't miss me too much. :P

Weekends are too short!

2006-08-28T10:40:00.000+08:00

Woke up quite early on Sat to get my salad done and all. Went to ChinaTown market which is now relocated to beside Outram MRT with my mom. We did some marketing, bought 30 prawn wantons, 30 "siew mai"s (all for my brother's chalet), fish and I forget what. Hahaha.. :P The weather is so hot! Like an oven. Geeeeeeeeeees.... Mom tapaoed some fish porridge and yam cake for lunch.

Afternoon met up with Wanxin and we just walked aimlessly around Bugis. Haha... So many things, so many nice things, but I can't wear them. Still too fat, though I'm told I've lost some weight. Sighz. Sad. Will work harder! Haha... :P Oh, I bought a pinkish-red top. Wanxin thought was really nice on me, then when I showed my parents, they had no comments. So sad. haha... :P

Sunday was another like busy day leh. Sighz. Woke up quite late, all my meals were pushed back by like 4 hours! Haha... Went out with my parents to Toa Payoh(as usual), then go see cars... Hohoho... Like no nice cars leh, maybe I'm still dreaming of my BMW. Hahahahahaha.... Anyway, we popped by Parkway to buy my Manilulur body scrub from Indonesian Jamu Shop. Sells all Indonesian stuff. The scrub is so cheap! 3 tubs for $10! It's on promotion. But even when not on promotion, it's only like $5 per tub. Yet to try it out!

Evening met up with Chewpeng. Went to NTUC, supposed to buy chocolate chip cookie ingredients, we ended up buying the ready mix. Haha.. so lazy us. :P Was not too bad lar. The first few trays were too soft and chewy that it's all broken. The second one, double chocolate chip, looks nice and good. I haven't tried them. :P Will tell you later lar. Hahahaha...

OH! Yesterday marks the end of my detox program. The results? Very much more radiant skin and 3 KG lost! WOO HOO! Hahaha... Oh well.................. Time to maintain and lose more weight to wear nicer clothes! HA!

Cute pictures!

2006-08-23T16:23:00.000+08:00

I can't help but put this picture in. :D

Sexy eyes... hahaa

2006-08-21T12:37:00.000+08:00

My very late birthday present

2006-08-13T23:43:00.000+08:00

As promised... A nice whole entry for this and with pictures! My dear Wanxin gave me a.......... TADA!

Wanxin with my birthday present!

Well, she got one for herself too! A cat version. Ha! What's new about her? hehe... Cat woman. ;)

Well, you know cats and dogs don't match. They will fight! I was just trying to stop them from fighting further.. Oh well, I guess the owners got to take control. ;)

Ok, so we, the owners of our "pets", decided to make PEACE. ;) Just the two of us.

Oh, and this picture is taken for me to practice smiling without showing my teeth while I'm haivng braces. Haha.. Not that bad right? ;)

Haha.. okiez, adios for now! ;)

Alright...

2006-08-07T10:35:00.000+08:00

It has been sometime since I last blog. So I shall now get my lazy ass and start updating. haha.. :P

Sometime ago, about last month lar, not too long ago, I finally received my very late birthday present from my dearest best friend in my heart Wanxin. A very cute personal alarm which don't look like a personal alarm. It looks like a stuffed doggie key chain! Haha.. I will post the photo up when I'm home and not lazy. ;)

And yes! I finally took off for 2 fruitful days after my long awaited comfimation of my job. So congrats to me. ;)

I spent the 2 days celebrating my Dear's birthday! Happy birthday my Dearest. I hope you like all the presents! We spent such good quality time hunting for best deals for the present. haha.. Oh well, I enjoyed the time spent together. We then spent Friday, Saturday and Sunday on our way to Langkawi with Dearest and his family! Family outing huh. Hee.. I think I shall write on the next post or something. Am getting alittle lazy at the moment! lolz...........

Oh yah, those of you going to KL and might be interested in a goooooooooooooood massage or spa like treatment, head down to The Curve and look for the shop "Urban Retreat". It's going to be open somewhere in October! Recommended by me won't go wrong one. ;)

I'm having a great time!

2006-07-19T17:38:00.000+08:00

Thanx for all those who replied in my blog. I have been feeling great! Yes I understand everyone goes through changes. I have also picked up a new hobby! Well not a but a few I guess.

I just finished my 6 days grooming course, did a fondation of skin care and total body grooming (should be getting a cert for that), and am doing a nutrition course at the moment and will be going for my cert in nutrition too! I guess I feel like I'm into this and I enjoy doing it. Anyone can come and ask me about them and I will be happy to help out in anyway. Maybe sometime in the near future, I'll give a talk about it. ;)

I'm crazy...

2006-06-26T14:59:00.000+08:00

I don't know how to get this feeling out of me.

After watching the salsa competition at Palawan last night, I felt immediate alienation and inferior complex. I felt like a fat bull among the countless swans. That goes without saying, all the lady contestants were so hot and sexy. I pathetically look down at the salsa shoes I was wearing, and looked up at all those socialling and competiting when they're so new to salsa. I'm not even half there. I don't know if it's self pity, but I felt so sad. Some old friends, when met, it felt nice that they remembered you, but some just simply forgotten you. It's like you're no longer needed. I think the problem could be me. There's nothing to do with another people. Maybe this scene is no longer for me or I'm just waiting my someone to get me going. Else I guess, I've to see other options of interest perhaps.

Life has been tough. It has always been for me. Though graduated and should be happily working, yet I still feel sad. There was no time for me to do so many things. I have yet to continue my piano, cook for at least my mom, learn all about make up and skin care, find the time to effectively shed off some pounds and tone up.

Now also got to live up to parents expectations and some future stuff. I'm just so tired. I can't find happy things here expect whenever I'm overseas. This is nuts I know. It feel like it's going to tumble down one day and I wonder who is going to be there when it comes.

I'm so happy and excited.

2006-06-21T10:44:00.000+08:00

Hehe... I just feeling happy.......... Because...... I had a great time with dear dear in KL. Went around for great food and great movies! Went around pigging sinfully with dear dear without putting on weight. Hee.. Strange huh? Oh well.... I had a great time lar. I also don't know how to describe.

Monday and Tuesday was pretty stressful. Was rushing an assignment for my boss to bring over to demo to our client. Yesterday was the date due. I'm glad that I finished it on time. I'm feeling satisfied and got good comments! Woohoo! Happy happy...

Will now concentrate on job, my skills, exercise, friends and my baby. Hmm is that too much? :D

2006-06-14T17:11:00.000+08:00

I got nothing good to write about.

I'm stressed everyday. Not enough sleep, work tiring. Got this to do, got that to do.........I'm going to break down soon.

Perhaps the good thing is I will be getting away for a while to my usual break away place, KL. Hopefully I can sleep more...

She will be loved?

2006-06-01T17:06:00.000+08:00

"She Will Be Loved"

by Maroon 5

Beauty queen of only eighteen

She had some trouble with herself

He was always there to help her

She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles

And wound up at your door

I've had you so many times but somehow

I want moreI don't mind spending everyday

Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Look for the girl with the broken smile

Ask her if she wants to stay awhile

And she will be loved

She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door

I want to make you feel beautiful

I know I tend to get so insecure

It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies

It's compromise that moves us along

My heart is full and my door's always open

You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday

Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Look for the girl with the broken smile

Ask her if she wants to stay awhile

And she will be loved

I know where you hide

Alone in your car

Know all of the things that make you who you are

I know that goodbye means nothing at all

Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window knock on my door

I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending everyday

Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Look for the girl with the broken smile

Ask her if she wants to stay awhile

And she will be loved

[in the background]Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

Yeah[softly]

I don't mind spending everyday

Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Try so hard to say goodbye

I should stop

2006-05-30T09:12:00.000+08:00

Writing sad stuff... There's so much more happy stuff. Sighz... The past 2 weekends, he drove all the way down just to keep me company and to join JC friends, poly friends, my pastor friend and her gang on different occasion.

I made a good buddy happy yesterday. Pheli babe had a slight new change on her blog and she's so happy. I feel so happy too. :) That makes me feel like revamping my boring blog site too. :D

Hmm, the reason I'm jogging, yeah... partly because I want to lose some weight, but not working lar. Don't know why... But also because I will more energetic at work. If I don't jog in the morning, I feel very very tired and sleepy. So.. Yah, it's sort of a kick start to a good day.

Just so happened that I was having a bad time at work... And I want to learn so many things. I isolate myself for a while but I couldn't so I vented out frustration on innocent people. It took some time before realising it. But damage is done, everything's fine now.

Wonder why they say life is full of ups and downs? That's why lar... BLEAH

I'm Sorry

2006-05-26T09:05:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry, I misunderstood.
I'm sorry for being so petty.
I'm sorry for trying to be too perfect and become overly stressed.
I'm sorry... Forgive me.

What went wrong?

2006-05-25T06:04:00.000+08:00

Here I am, tearing at the blog of other happy girls. All I want is love and mutual understand. Stop angering at me or fake angering at me.

I've already plan for the future. I want to look good on that special day. I want flawless skin, shapelier body and good health. Classes do not end earlier, but I want to try to rush things.

Why time is never enough? By the time I reach home, it's almost 11.30pm. Just because I said, "You are so bad", and the child's saying, "Don't want you then you know" it all wraps up a relationship?

Sometimes I wish there's more time for me to do everything. But no... time is NEVER enough. People says, "I don't have time to exercise". This saying is true, given the kind of schedule I have. I really don't have the time in the day. So, I wake up at 6am to jog for fitness. I really don't want to put anymore nonsense saying in my head. It has enough. Already I don't have sleep. I don't want to think about this.

I'm waiting for a time where I can spend a loving lovely time at Redang like some enjoyed. Sounds romantic...

Sad

2006-05-25T00:40:00.000+08:00

Don't think I can sleep well tonight. I hate myself, how pathetic... No one loves me anyway... except my parents.

Damn you cockroach

2006-05-18T09:57:00.000+08:00

How dare you disturb my bath this morning... People jog this morning for 30 mins and need a bath badly and you must come and intrude my precious bathing time.

Heroric Mom came to the rescue and KILL you damn cockroach. So big somemore. :s

Another boring day... I need sleep... :(

Hmmm tell me your comments.

2006-05-11T14:29:00.000+08:00

You scored as Mathematics. You should be a Math major! Like Pythagoras, you are analytical, rational, and when are always ready to tackle the problem head-on!

Mathematics

75%

Dance

67%

Chemistry

67%

Engineering

67%

Biology

67%

Philosophy

58%

Sociology

58%

English

58%

Journalism

50%

Psychology

50%

Anthropology

50%

Art

50%

Linguistics

50%

Theater

50%

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2006-05-09T15:15:00.000+08:00

Friday 30 mins, Monday 30 mins, today 30 mins of jogging. Weekend too tired and lazy. Haha...

Sad... Daddy left the house for Hilston. Maybe away for 2 weeks, 1 month or 2 months. :'(

Jog jog jog

2006-05-04T10:50:00.000+08:00

Thurs jog, Friday jog...

Saturday: in KL! hehehe... I had a sinful weekend! I had soft shell crab for lunch, marmite crab and salted egg crab for dinner! YUMMY!!! Thanx DEAR. I feel so fat. :P

Sunday: Had ban mian for breakfast... YUMMY! Went up to Genting and went to the Mushroom farm. Rain, so stayed in the hotel a while and watched movie. :D So funny, coz we brought our own DVD and DVD player to watch movie. :P Genting Theme Park was packed! Gees... So we didn't go and play. Had a really good dinner at Gohtong Jaya. Had prawn mee cooked in Malaysian style, fish and veggies. So YUMMY again! :D At night, we to the Indoor Arcade. Wanted to go to the Indoor Theme Park for the Labour Day Promotion, only RM12 per entry after midnight, but I was too tired. :P

Monday: Morning, woke up and got dressed and we went for breakfast at the hotel. Nothing much left. Prefered the Ban MIAN. Hehe... :P Anyway, we went to the Outdoor Theme Park and wanted to take 2 roller coaster rides, but I suddenly felt like a chicken. Dare not sit. :S So ended up playing the Gold Cart. Hehe.. Very fun! Slowest racer around. :P

Had lunch at Mushroom farm before we headed for home where I got to pack and get ready to leave Malaysia. :( Watched one last movie at home before I left. Sad...

Tues: Morning-Jog for 30 mins then worked then collect my stuff in the evening.

Wed: Morning jog 30 mins. then work and went for a talk.

Thurs: Morning jog for 30 mins. Now working. Tonight got class. :D

That's all from me!

I would like to thank...

2006-05-03T13:06:00.000+08:00

It's a little late, but never the less, would like to thank:

For the birthday SMSes
Wanxin
Kok Fei
Kaili
Elaine
James
Hui er
Chin Fee

For the birthday wishes
Loreen
Caren
Mom
Dad
Brother

For the birthday call
Yana
Chewpeng

For the birthday note
Tim

For coming and the first to greet me
My dearieeeeeee of course. =)

Getting sadder but more enegetic!

2006-04-26T09:56:00.000+08:00

Wah, I just realised I've been exercising... Like hobby like that...

Lets see, last Thurs and Friday jogged non-stopped for 30 mins. Sat rest, Sunday swim for an hour unknowingly. Monday stomach pain, no exercise, yesterday, jogged 35 mins non-stop, this morning jogged another 35mins non-stop.

Hmmm... but why is my weight not going down?!?!?!?!?! Sad... :'( But on the brighter side, I'm more alert at work. :)

I can do it!

2006-04-19T09:08:00.000+08:00

Hmmm... Where did I stopped? :D Went swimming on Sat, Sun morning for average 40 mins. Sick on Monday, so no exercise, jog 15 mins and walk for another 15 mins yesterday and jogged for 25 mins and 5 mins walk this morning!

Fats BURN BURN BURN... Wah haha...

Anyway, I was amazed by this news I read in today's Straits Times. "JC student commit suicide because he was convinced that his private parts were small." Sheesh... To make things worse, he was from top JC and good in his studies that he can take S papers, got girlfriend and mother support. Hai...

Guys, pls don't do such silly things ok?

Exercise exercise...

2006-04-14T20:01:00.000+08:00

Lets see... I went jogging for 15 mins, 15 walk on Wednesday morning, 20 mins jog, 10 mins walk Thursday morning and 45 mins swimming today. :p

FATS BURN BURN.................................

Happy Birthday to me...

2006-04-10T15:19:00.000+08:00

Haha... happy weekend was spent going shopping with Dearieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... Meals together.

But good things always comes to an end fast. :(

Happy?

2006-04-06T09:09:00.000+08:00

Seems like today started off BAD.

Forgot to put Mom's HP back in her bag. :( Got scolding. :(

Web maintainance girl came in to take a picture of my new colleague to be put up on the Company's intranet. And he has to write a short introduction about himself.

Me? I don't have ANYTHING! Guess not really wanted in here. A contract job, not given leave, have to take NO PAY leave if I want a day off, no orientation given.

Very sad.

SO SAD!

2006-04-03T10:43:00.000+08:00

Whilst reading another blog where a guy is blogging about his experience in using u-Zap, there is a picture of his beer belly at 37 inch. And my colleague commented, "wah so big." Then I said the person got 37 inch waist line. Then casually asked, what's his. "28 inches" he said. So, of course for a guy, he is thin, so I commented, "why you so skinny?" And he answered, "Why are you so fat?"

HMPH! I'm healthy ok! I went swimming for a good 40 mins non-stop yesterday and jogging this morning! :P

I miss...

2006-03-26T10:32:00.000+08:00

Walking hand in hand down the streets.

That's me, the smiling baby tiger when I get kisses...

Dreaming...

2006-03-26T09:04:00.000+08:00

This morning feeling little happy...
I had thoughts about us going to Wild Wild Wet together and doing the things we always do as one.
I saw us going everywhere in Melbourne together and always laughing, smiling, holding and were so loving.
I saw us going around your country together as happily.
I saw us going around Singapore and spending time at home happily.

Then Daddy came in. Then I woke up. Then I realised I was dreaming. I cannot stop thinking about you. I wish there can be a way to cultivate a little more faith and trust in me. I don' want to dream anymore.

I wish

2006-03-25T03:49:00.000+08:00

I wish I have this kind of hug everyday. Me being the brown tiger.

I cannot sleep

2006-03-25T03:24:00.000+08:00

Got awoken by a call.
Got scolded again.
Got tears running again.
Got the call again.
Got the same question again.
Got to answer the same question again.
Got to get another answer.
Got accused for giving that answer.
Got accused for not giving love.

Heart pain... Wish I can jump and end all miseries.

I am now not torlerant to snacks/tea

2006-03-22T16:39:00.000+08:00

I have discovered a weird truth.

Ever since I started my "healthy" lifestyle, by eatting healthy and exercising, I am now NOT able to snack at all. The consequence? A VERY BAD STOMACH PAIN which feels like gallstone. :( I don't even know now if I'm having that.

It started with Sat, had a little light black glutinuos rice dessert (Oh Ju) with very little coconut at 4pm. Then at night, I suffered a stomach pain. It wasn't too bad as I took po chai pills. The same thing happened on Sunday, I had an indian donut, the pain came back again at night. :( Took po chai pills and everything was back to normal.

Monday. Nothing happened because I didn't snack. Tuesday. I started to have stomach pain after having some gummies at 2pm. :( Too stress started to eat a little, then pain. :( The pain got worse at night. Didn't subsize until I sleep. :(

Why why why? Am I really not able to enjoy what I use to like to eat? :( So sad. The only good thing is that I will eat less rubbish. :(

To tell you the truth, I'm scared... Really scared... :(

SQC

2006-03-17T17:01:00.000+08:00

What is SQC? It stands for Singapore Quality Class. Wow, today then I know that my company has an SQC lisence. How cool is that? Hee... Went for an hour's briefing today. Was quiet interesting.

It wasn't as boring as what some people describe. Perhaps because it's my first time listening to this, so it isn't that boring. Learnt some stuff from my boss too.

I guess today has been an ok day so far lar. My mood is much better. I'm feeling fatter again. Had some biscults for tea. :P hungry lar. :(

Anyway, I hope to maintain my healthy lifestyle lar. That way, I'll be more energetic than ever! Yeah!

Love will keep us alive...

2006-03-16T15:17:00.000+08:00

I was standing
All alone against the world outside
You were searching
For a place to hide
Lost and lonely
Now you’ve given me the will to survive
When we’re hungry...
love will keep us alive

Don’t you worry
Sometimes you’ve just gotta let it ride
The world is changing
Right before your eyes
Now I’ve found you
There’s no more emptiness inside
When we’re hungry...
love will keep us alive

I would die for you
Climb the highest mountain
Baby, there’s nothing I wouldn’t do

I was standing
All alone against the worlk outside
You were searching
For a place to hide
Lost and lonely
Now you’ve given me the will to survive
When we’re hungry...
love will keep us alive

When we’re hungry...
love will keep us alive
When we’re hungry...
love will keep us alive

I'm certain that I've some talent.

2006-03-16T09:17:00.000+08:00

I may not be the queen of salsa, but I am certainly is one in the eyes of my classmates in Uni and Poly. I feel quite sure if I were to continue, I will certainly be part of the hot people around. You know, I've stopped. And you know why.

Am now moving on to a new hobby with my girlfriends shopping and chatting and doing all the girls' stuff that guy's ain't suppose to know. And I know certainly that I have some talent in it. Am approached for some tips and advice before. Perhaps the girls think that I have some sense in colours and knowing what's best for our own pocket.

But... I don't know why I always seems so wrong for myself. I don't know what's best for myself. I always land up myself into the kind of things I LAST hope for. All I hope for is to improve myself and making myself looking like one of those beautiful people you see on the streets. I know I am not one... YET. But I'm moving towards that goal.

It would be easier for me now to support myself because I'm so blessed with beautiful and caring people around me. Got myself a good job. Dolling up and improving shouldn't be too difficult.

Yet I feel like I'm suffering. My eyes continuously feels sore, my heart feels that I will never achieve what I'm hoping for. My mind tells me that it's silly to feel that way, but how can you tell my heart not to feel that way?

I need to rest...

I cut my precious LONG hair.

2006-03-15T14:29:00.000+08:00

haha.. Yah... I have a cute fringe now. :P No more split ends! Yeah! Now waiting for my hair to be more shiney. :P

Bah...

2006-03-14T09:36:00.000+08:00

I haven't been jogging on Friday, Saturday, Sunday and Monday... Guilty guilty guilty now.. :S
Still did the 200 crunches, 30 squats, 20 pushes ups and some hula hoops on Sunday and Monday. Don't whether can remedy the lag or not. :P

Anyway, I had a fun filled weekend! Meet up with my poly girls on Sat for Marlisa's engagement party. Marlisa was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO beautiful. And Cuilin was so HOOOOOOOOOOOT HOTHOTTTTTTTTTTTT. :D We headed to Taka for dinner where we met Sishi... Had a good dinner and had a really good time chatting. You know, girls talk. :D

Tried going to the IT show on Sunday but when Chewpeng and I got to the bridge leading to Suntec, there was a JAM! Human JAM! And it wasn't moving. :S So... We ended up at Sim Lim Sq and got the stuff Chewpeng needed. After which we went to do some "shopping". :D I don't think I can really say it here. But anyway, I ended up seeing things that I like! Am now thinking about going back to actually buy them. :P We did a lot of things lar, like dinner and looking at beauty products. :D What to do when you have 2 girls shopping together. :D

I love it, like an all girls weekend. Hopefully I will be able to job tonight! :P

Feeling all energetic!

2006-03-10T09:15:00.000+08:00

Oh, I made a mistake in the previous post, there are 5 murders in a row. :S I've mentioned 3 in the last entry. The other 2 is actually 2 in 1. :( This man killed his China wife who is 7 months pregnant. Sad huh... Anyway... All the cases have been solve within a few days.

PHEW! 2 consecutive days of exercising! My legs are pretty sore now. Haha... I went jogging on Wednesday for 20 mins only. Enough to KILL. Hahaha... Yesterday morning woke up at 6.50am to do 200 crunches, 20 push ups and 30 squats, 20 mins of hula hoop. Jogged for 20 min, 75 crunches, 10 push ups and 20 squats in the evening. Woke up this morning at 6.40. Did 100 crunches, 40 squats, 20 push ups and 20 mins of hula hoop. My body is feeling all sore now. Haha.. but I'm feeling all awake! Woo hoo! I think I will continue this healthy lifestyle.

I wonder if it's healthy. :P

What is the wrong with Singapore MAN?

2006-03-08T10:00:00.000+08:00

First we had this Las Vegas KTV boss shot at his home in Serangoon then the recent 2 year old girl being killed by her own step father and threw her body at Aljunied Flyover and the latest a malay man got murdered at Henderson.

What is going on with these murderers? Don't they know the consequences? They know it's a crime and yet they do it. They try to run away, but come on, I think the Singapore police are not stupid. I'm quite glad to have such a justice force, they solve the case quite quickly and swiftly.

I feel so sad for the little 2 year old. So young and innocent, and have yet to experience more fun things at her age. And the KTV boss, shot when his wife and daughter in the house. How horrible is that? Sighz...

I believe that even the biggest problem that makes you feel like hurting something can be solved in a calm and diplomatic way. No need for violence. Hai... Going to continue my work now. ciaozzz

I'm feeling a little...

2006-03-03T16:05:00.000+08:00

Upset...

Weekend was good

2006-02-28T11:03:00.000+08:00

I know it's a little late to update about the weekend. But I guess it's better late than never.

Well, Saturday was really a hectic day. Well, not really hectic lar... Woke up at 9am, and went for a swim from 9.10am till 9.50am. Hopefully some calories were burnt. Had a light brunch and waited for dad to view houses starting from 2pm. Had a little hoo haa during this time... Eye sores etc...

Dad liked a place at Balmoral and I personally feel that it's an exclusive residential area but not exactly to my liking because the MRT is still not within walking distance. Have to take a bus down to Orchard. :( So... Anyway, the places that we saw were all around the area. The price is quite a rocket and I felt that it was not worth. It's not near market nor MRT. Finish viewing at almost 4++++pm.

Went home to rest and talk to someone special. Going to KL this Friday. :D Don't say again. :P Anyway, I met my dear JC sisters, Kaili, Doreen and Yana. We had dinner together at Breeks. Food was not too bad. Had individual presents from Yana to make it a sisterly necklance. :D And had present from Doreen, belated Xmas. *faints* :D Walked around AMK, bought girly stuff. Was so nice meeting them again. :D

Sunday was a more hectic day. Though woke up at 9am, was not enough for the marketing at 9.30am till almost 10.20am to view another house at 10.30am and went to look at other house. Love the concept of an apartment at Lincoln Road, but was too small and too expensive. :(

Attend a meeting with my parents, and continued the journey to looking at house again in the evening. BIG PLACE, but hell loads of renovation to do if we were to move in. :( No perfect place. Sad...

Ah... that's the weekend lar...

Diet day 2 and 3

2006-02-24T09:25:00.000+08:00

I guess it's so good so far without starving myself. Had vegterian beehoon with veggies and fish slice soup for lunch on Wed and Thurs respectively.

Did routines of 200 crunches, 30 push ups and 30 squats on Wed, 200 crunches, 30 push ups and 40 squats yesterday. Haha... Did these and made me a little tired. :S haha... I thought a few more times of routines I should be able to do the routines together with swim or run(which I planned lar.. haha) I wish I'm one of those who have high metabolism rate to burn all the fats and stay slim and sexy. hehe...

However, life is short. Spend a great dinner with my mom last night. Didn't eat till the brim though. We shared a bowl of "La mien", steam fish, veggies and steam dumplings. Not bad huh. And the food was good. You know those from Crystal Jade? Yeah, that one. All the portions were small and shared between my mom and I.

Am going out with my mom again tonight, to a company's dinner which she is invited to. I think it would be quite fun... The theme is Retro, and the DJ and host is Venetta Lopez of Class 95.

Diet Day1

2006-02-22T09:39:00.000+08:00

ok... so yesterday was a better day... I guess...
My programming partly solved...
Went for a 20 mins swim last evening.
Had a healthy yong tau foo soup, with ikan bilis rice.

Not bad lar I guess.
Slept early too! :D

Plan Failed!

2006-02-21T14:26:00.000+08:00

Ah! I didn't swim yesterday. Became too tired and sleepy when I came home. :( Hopefully I will swim later this evening...

Programming stuck at Treeview with check boxes at the moment! Anyone knows is welcome to help.

Plan for the week

2006-02-20T17:07:00.000+08:00

Afterwork

Monday: dinner then 15 mins swim

Tuesday: dinner then 30 mins swim

Wednesday: dinner then 1 hour swim

Thursday: dinner then 1 hour swim

Friday: dinner then 1 hour swim

Saturday: Morning wake up, breakfast, see house (maybe), lunch, rest, dinner with Yana, Doreen and Kaili!

Sunday: Morning 1 hour swim, see house, lunch, enbloc meeting, dinner

Everyday includes calling my one and only. :D

Cute OVERLOADED! :D

2006-02-17T12:58:00.000+08:00

I found this absolutely cute website. Enjoy. :) http://cuteoverload.com/

Roses

2006-02-17T11:23:00.000+08:00

Got this off someone's blog. :) Sorry if you don't like me taking it, but I just simply want to keep it and share it with everyone. I hope someone reads this and give me the appropriate number of roses. :D Dearie........ THAT"S A HINT TO YOU. If you read this lar. hehe...

Here it goes:...

A single stalk of rose - "Love at first sight" or "I still love you"

A single rose (any colour) - "Simplicity & gratitude"

3 roses - "I love you"

7 roses - "I'm infatuated with you"

9 roses - "We'll be together forever"

10 roses - "You are perfect"

11 roses - "You are My Treasured One"-

12 roses - "Be mine!"

13 roses - "Friends forever"

15 roses - "I'm truly sorry"

20 roses - "I'm truly sincere towards you"

21 roses - "I'm dedicated to you"

24 roses - "Forever yours"

25 roses - "Congratulations"

36 roses - "Remembering our romantic times"

40 roses - "My genuine love for you"

50 roses - Unconditional love

99 roses - "I will love you all the days of my life"

101 roses - "I'm completely devoted to you"

108 roses - "Will you marry me?"

999 roses - "I love you till the end of time"

What did you do this Valentine?

2006-02-15T09:35:00.000+08:00

Some dread it...
Some hate it...
Some simply LOVE it whether you're single or attached.

Before I start my studies in Melbourne, I used to go out with my best friend Wanxin and celebrate this special day together. We weren't attached then but nevertheless, we like that day a lot. We will have a meal together and buy flowers for each other and sometimes exchange presents. :D And I still keep those flowers till date. Of course the flowers have been dried. She did the same to those flowers as well. My other best friend Chewpeng, we will always exchange presents too. I never throw or give away things that are given to me. So, my collection of things has accumulated over the years.

Now that I have completed my studies and started work, it's a little more challenging to how we can keep these. Wanxin's working too. Chewpeng's studying. Chewpeng did asked for a date. And at that time I already had a date with the beautician to do something for my scars. :D OOps... We ought to meet soon. I miss those days. :D

Then my mother went to cancel it at the last minute to spend the dinner with me. :D So mother and daugther went out on a Valentine's dinner. :D We had pomfret steamboat. Was not that fantastic. We ordered a yam basket too but tasted like yucks. :S Maybe we ordered the wrong thing. :S

Before we left the steamboat restaurant, we met our neighbour with her son. :D Seems like the singles valentine were well spent with parents. Hehe... I love it.

The thing that made my day was an early morning msg from my dearest dearie. Went to the office with a happy feeling and later feeling SO SO So tired.... :S The programming for the day had kill some of my brain cells. :D You see, I'm a lousy programmer. Still learning. And so much more to learn.

Oh, one nice thing happened yesterday too. Left office half an hour later to see how my collegues start up the system, which I had a small part in, in my boss' laptop. Was a nice feeling. My boss said if the system is able to set up in his laptop, he would demo it in HK today to their potential client. Sounds good right? :D

Though Dearie couldn't spend Valentine with me on the actual day, he made up by coming over the weekend to spend a preValentine which I enjoyed very much. Had a simple dinner, walked around AMK, esplanade and East Coast. And later did what we enjoyed most... Watching a movie at home together. Hee...

Oh well, better get back to work. ;)