I don't know how to get this feeling out of me.
After watching the salsa competition at Palawan last night, I felt immediate alienation and inferior complex. I felt like a fat bull among the countless swans. That goes without saying, all the lady contestants were so hot and sexy. I pathetically look down at the salsa shoes I was wearing, and looked up at all those socialling and competiting when they're so new to salsa. I'm not even half there. I don't know if it's self pity, but I felt so sad. Some old friends, when met, it felt nice that they remembered you, but some just simply forgotten you. It's like you're no longer needed. I think the problem could be me. There's nothing to do with another people. Maybe this scene is no longer for me or I'm just waiting my someone to get me going. Else I guess, I've to see other options of interest perhaps.
Life has been tough. It has always been for me. Though graduated and should be happily working, yet I still feel sad. There was no time for me to do so many things. I have yet to continue my piano, cook for at least my mom, learn all about make up and skin care, find the time to effectively shed off some pounds and tone up.
Now also got to live up to parents expectations and some future stuff. I'm just so tired. I can't find happy things here expect whenever I'm overseas. This is nuts I know. It feel like it's going to tumble down one day and I wonder who is going to be there when it comes.