Monday, June 26, 2006

I'm crazy...

I don't know how to get this feeling out of me.

After watching the salsa competition at Palawan last night, I felt immediate alienation and inferior complex. I felt like a fat bull among the countless swans. That goes without saying, all the lady contestants were so hot and sexy. I pathetically look down at the salsa shoes I was wearing, and looked up at all those socialling and competiting when they're so new to salsa. I'm not even half there. I don't know if it's self pity, but I felt so sad. Some old friends, when met, it felt nice that they remembered you, but some just simply forgotten you. It's like you're no longer needed. I think the problem could be me. There's nothing to do with another people. Maybe this scene is no longer for me or I'm just waiting my someone to get me going. Else I guess, I've to see other options of interest perhaps.

Life has been tough. It has always been for me. Though graduated and should be happily working, yet I still feel sad. There was no time for me to do so many things. I have yet to continue my piano, cook for at least my mom, learn all about make up and skin care, find the time to effectively shed off some pounds and tone up.

Now also got to live up to parents expectations and some future stuff. I'm just so tired. I can't find happy things here expect whenever I'm overseas. This is nuts I know. It feel like it's going to tumble down one day and I wonder who is going to be there when it comes.

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

I'm so happy and excited.

Hehe... I just feeling happy.......... Because...... I had a great time with dear dear in KL. Went around for great food and great movies! Went around pigging sinfully with dear dear without putting on weight. Hee.. Strange huh? Oh well.... I had a great time lar. I also don't know how to describe.

Monday and Tuesday was pretty stressful. Was rushing an assignment for my boss to bring over to demo to our client. Yesterday was the date due. I'm glad that I finished it on time. I'm feeling satisfied and got good comments! Woohoo! Happy happy...

Will now concentrate on job, my skills, exercise, friends and my baby. Hmm is that too much? :D

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

I got nothing good to write about.

I'm stressed everyday. Not enough sleep, work tiring. Got this to do, got that to do.........I'm going to break down soon.

Perhaps the good thing is I will be getting away for a while to my usual break away place, KL. Hopefully I can sleep more...

Thursday, June 01, 2006

She will be loved?

"She Will Be Loved"
by Maroon 5
Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else
I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want moreI don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore
It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
[in the background]Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Yeah[softly]
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Try so hard to say goodbye