Well, for all my friends in Singapore who heard about the thunderstorms in Melbourne, Sydney and Brisbane, Ok.......... I have no idea that there was a storm. I don't have a TV in my new house. The uni haven't been selling the newspaper cards for free newspapers everyday. Oh well, so I'm pretty out of touch of the latest news. But I can tell you that the latest news for me here in Melbourne.
I have officially moved to my new house. It's a double story town house. Staying with my boyfriend in the same room. But our room is still in a mess coz I don't have time to pack my stuff. The weather has been freaky and been raining non-stop. The weather feels like spring. No, spring is not warm at all. It's cold and wet. Forgive me if I haven't been able to chat with any of you guys online. That's because I don't have a phone connection and no Internet access. At the moment, I'm using the uni's lab to access my emails and blogging and if you guys are online, I will be on web messenger.
Maybe some of you are wondering why my title is that? Well, I'm feeling that. I'm so vexed up and having so many mixed feelings. I love my boyfriend so much. But there are somethings that I don't know. He was so honest that I become so hurt. I really don't know what I have done to deserve this. I'm told to wait for a year and he will come and look for me in Singapore. And during this year, he wants to make more "friends".
I'm totally messed up. I want to finish my Bachelor ASAP. I want to get out of Melbourne soon. I cannot stand the weather here. I cannot stand the life here. I miss my mother. I miss my father. I miss my friends who are ever so faithful to me during times of trouble. I always feel myself always in tears. I'm living in pain. My heart is totally sore and hurt.
I'm just wondering if there is anything wrong with me? Am I petty? Am I too possesive? Am I too not good enough? Or maybe I'm fat, ugly and short. Or maybe........... I'm just another dumbass girl....