Tuesday, January 25, 2005

I have no idea what to put here...

Haha.. It's been sometime since I last blogged? Well, I don't really know what to say... I have shed tears a couple of times these days.

I'm so excited that's he's coming to Melbourne soon. But the though of him just coming here to take an exam and not doing anything else it's just so wasting time here in Melbourne. Though I really want him to stay and accompany me, but... Sighz, it's a self-fish thought. :(

What to do? sighz......... I wonder why.. sighz... So vexed, so irritated.... school.... house... *big sigh*

Friday, January 21, 2005

I cried again...

My mother called me last night and we chatted about a lot of things. And I really opened up my eyes last night. I realised that I'm so blessed and deeply in love with my boyfriend. I just cannot stand days without him by my side. It was like my right hand is missing.

My mom was telling me how happy she was that I found Tjun and she gave me all her blessings. I burst into tears. I don't know what I'm feeling here. Maybe, I'm happy that she was happy for me, and maybe I felt sad about the thought of leaving her. She said she was happy that my boyfriend was a fantastic guy that I should treasure. And I really do treasure him a lot though all his comments are always so straight forward and hurting. Anyway, I know what he said are true, I am trying to do something about it. It has been years that I'm trying. I will have to try hard this year. For myself, and for the love of my life. I wish we had a proper dinner with my family. I'm so sorry that my parents are so busy. And did I mention it was my first time that my father smiled at my friend? Hmmm, that was him.

Through this chat, I also found out that my ex was cheating on me. That's was probably why I finally let him go and only treated him as a friend. But being friends was not good enough, he kept talking about the past which make me sick. I hate it. Anyway, he's totally out of my life, and I will NEVER want to see him again. I have no idea why I even kept him as a friend for so long and have sympathy for his family for a year after my break up with him. Probably I was blinded. And only time made me open my eyes clearer. And my stupid brother didn't tell me about him going to play pool with another girl very closely when he was with me. That's cheating b*st*rd. Do I fall for prey easily? I think after the whole experience, I'm more cautious now. Hmmm I don't have feelings about him at all. I think this is a good sign.

I don't know how to express myself to my boyfriend. All the things that I'm willing to do for him. I hope he knows that I'm totally serious about this whole relationship and I'm not playing him. I love him with all my heart. I don't ever want to hurt him again. Never... I'm not the "sui pian" person. Yes I was blinded, but I don't wish to be cheated on and I totally have trust in him. Am I too soft? I seems to appear strong, but I'm really weak inside when it comes to my own relationship. I never felt this way for anyone. Not to the extend to what we're going to do for the coming semester. It's a big step. I'm excited but scared at the same time. Who wouldn't be???

Thursday, January 20, 2005

Am I attractive? hahaha.. Oh well...

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You Attract A Good Amount of Guys

While you may not get the most offers in the room,

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You could flirt more and dress up a bit to attract more guys

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Tongue talent.. hahahaha


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Haha.. I'm both a lace bra and a lace panty. Oh well.. :S

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virgin daiquiri

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Tuesday, January 18, 2005


I'm just in the mood where I don't feel confident about myself at the moment. Perhaps because someone went shopping with pretty girls. Not only that they are pretty, they are tall too.

Am I having an inferior complexity? I really wish that I was taller. But I inherited short genes. I'm not blaming anyone for giving me genes that make me short. I love my Mom. Everyone knows that. Somehow I feel like I'm in tears for things that I shouldn't be tearing for. But I've given so much feelings and put in a lot of effort maintaining somethings.

Sometimes I just wonder why did guys asked me to be their girlfriends? Am I too easy to get? I mean, I do reject some guys too. Am I not good enough?

Maybe I should ask all the girls out there with boyfriends. Why are you eating less because of a guy? My mom always tells me that a person should except you as who you are. I thought all the guys I had were like that. Maybe I am wrong.

As most of you know, I'm already trying very hard to lose weight. But sometimes due to some circumtances, I cannot fulfill the weight lost correctly. And I HATE the gym. And I cannot run, due to old back injury. What am I suppose to do? The only thing that I can do that I like and without injuring myself is through salsa-dancing and swimming. It's quite hard to get these 2 here in Melbourne. And I think salsa dancing might have given my boyfriend a wrong impression. Am trying to either slow down salsa or give salsa a better impression. I mean, no offence to my salsa friend, but you know that there are people in the salsa scene who abused the name of salsa which makes salsa quite a flirtious dance. And you guys know that I love you all.

I wish I'm prettier, taller and slimmer. Maybe I should go for lipo-suction.

Saturday, January 15, 2005

What kind of dancer am I?

You are a Ballerina. You are the classic princess
between all, you have an opinion about almost
everything, your friends respect you and see
you as a role model cuz you are always in your
way up. Your ideal man is someone who respects
the successful and intelligent woman you are.

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I'm wondering why there's no SALSA dancer? :P

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

24 Dec to 26 Dec...

Haha.. Another unforgetable days.

Well, as most of you know, Gary, Isabel and I set off to KL at 7.30am on 24 Dec to KL. My mission? Of course to meet my dearest boyfriend. And every thing else was unplanned. Gary and Isabel were of course to see the salsa scene in KL and also to chill and have a good time.

Met my DEAREST DARLING in the afternoon. He was like the hunk walking down the path to meet me. Hehe... Looking at his handsome face... Hehehe... Oh well... Ah... I could contain my excitement and happiness when I saw him. hehe... *sheesh, I'm like giggling to myself at the moment.* Went to the hotel, put down our luaggages and went to the Chinese restaurant at Sungei Wang. Walk around a little. Came back to the hotel and got changes to go dinner with Dearie's family.

Gary and Isabel were teasing me about "Meeting the parents" session. I was of course feeling very nervous, and was quite quiet during dinner. Isabel and Gary were like enjoying the food so much. Haha... They commented to me like they were just accompanying like my protectors when meeting the parents. Sheesh... Oh well... We all had a good dinner and head of to one of the salsa clubs, Little Havana. Was pretty NOT happening when we arrived there. The dancers were like dancing with the same people. Perhaps we are not familiar with the people there. We stay until midnight. Not so exciting, but was more like a quiet club and everyone is wishing each other "Merry Christmas". Gary tried teaching Dearie some salsa basics. Hehe.. Was cute looking at Dearie danced. Actually, in that short time, Dearie made quite a good progress. :) Not every can master the front and back steps in one day. Anyway, Dearie and I left the club earlier.

As we left the club and headed for our hotel, there were a lot of youth along the roads of KL. I have never seen such a crowd! It was amazing. Everyone was holding to a bottle of colour spray foams. Dearie and I had to "siam" from those people who tried to spray at us. It seemed quite fun, but I didn't want to dirty my blouse. I wasn't prepared to dirty myself that way. Anyway, we arrived at the hotel. We spent some quality time together alone. Exchanged presents. Hee... Dearie gave me a really nice shawl. Orange with some strips. Nice nice... I really like it a lot. Hehe.. In exchange, I bought Dearie an orange OP shirt. Haha.. :P

Christmas Day... We all woke up late. We spent lunch at some eatery with Gary's and Isabel's friend, Chris. She was a nice girl, a little too cheeky I suppose. Afterwhich, we went to Sungei Wang again for shopping. I didn't really spend much, there wasn't much for me to spend on. Didn't see anything that I like. It was a waste that we spent so much time at Sungei Wang that we didn't go to 1 Utama. :( I met Bobby for the first time that day too. First impression? Sheesh, haha... erm.. not too nice to mention here. Was the first guy I know who is so enthu about shopping. Kinda wasted time going into every single shop and not buying anything. hmmm... Dearie and I decided to go a little our own way, and I finally bought a blouse from Soda that I like and Dearie finds it nice on me. Can you believe that this short paragraph was just spent like that on Christmas day? sheesh.. LOLz....

Anyway, Christmas day evening for me was spent at Dearie's place. His parents invited me for dinner. It was really like family thingy. Hmmm... And the first time I see Dearie's macho dog, Robbie. :D Robbie seems playful, but cute. Oh well, I have a little phobia of big dog because I was bitten by one not too long ago. :S Anyway, dinner was nice and simple. His parents cook really well. I enjoyed dinner. After dinner, we were like spending quality time again. Took a shower too. And spent the night at Dearie's place. In the middle of the night, I woke up. Then Dearie woke up. We went downstairs and Dearie saw Robbie sitting on the sofa. Hehe.. So cute.. :P Oh, then we had some soup before we head for bed again. :)

The next day morning, we went back to the hotel to get Gary and Isabel. I think that night before, they had too much fun until they couldn't wake up. Haha.. I felt really bad for making Dearie's parents wait for so long. Oh well, in the end we had to have breakfast on the train. Dearie came back to Singapore with me. Hee... We spent some time sleeping and eating on the train. Haha... And that day, he sees my mother for the first time. :P

17 Dec

Haha.. Another late blog...

Well, that morning, I met up with my JC friends for breakfast. Kaili was the first to reach as usual. I was a little late. Reached at 9.10am. Well, We were suppose to reach the Burger King at Yishun. And I was staying at Novena, the rest stayed at places like Yishun (anyway, Kaili was the first to arrive), Sembawang and Seng Keng. According to my intuition, *lol* they would have arrive BK in at the most 20 mins? hahaha... Oh well........ Bleah...

It was good to see each other again. Brought me to the day when I played basketball for our team, netball, marathon and those days where we will just laze around in college. haha..

Kaili looks the same, as cheerful and bubbly as ever. She's like always there when I chat with her on MSN. haha.. :P Doreen, become prettier already lor. Hair is longer, and she perms the ends of her hair. Very nice. Her smile still as cute as ever lah. Haha.. :P Tricia... Hmmmm The one who set the time and came the latest. Hahaha... Anyway, she is still as crappy as ever, teasing here and there. Oh, she permed her hair too. Looks nice, but she didn't want to show it as, as in let it down to show its natural beauty. Hmmm... She said she looked "Auntie". But I don't think so leh. Evon, still the same lor. So skinny and I think she lost weight again lor. Looks like she's been busy with so much things. She almost couldn't make it for our little JC gathering. hehehe...

Was a short time together. Was it felt good to see each other again. It was almost 1 year that we last met each other? Hehe.. I guess the bond is still there, though I was in JC for only 1 year.

Monday, January 10, 2005

23 Dec...

alright.. finally I'm sitting down... hmm not sitting down, but lying on my bed and typing my blog for 23 Dec. Why such an odd date? Or why should I write something about the past? Well, I felt that it was a nice day to remember.

I don't really remembered what happened in the day. But the most important thing that day was, I prepared dinner for my best friend Wanxin. She came over for an early christmas dinner. I made chicken chop and my own wedges and veggies. Sheesh, she don't eat brocollis. Darn.. OH well... She did eat quite a lot of the chicken. Hehe... She said it was good. And I'm happy that she enjoyed my cooking.

Oh.. Just in case some of you guys are wondering. I marinated my own chicken and marinated my own wedges. I cut the potatoes and stuff. Including the fruit platter. Oh well, we didn't really eat all the fruits, coz it was too much. :s

Well, it was a good night really. we spent some time exchanging presents. I received my first christmas present. A 2005 botanical organiser. It was a beautiful organiser. A little to nice to be used. But I'm instructed to use it anyway. Sheesh... Oh well....

Wanxin also spend sometime in my room taking pictures with my hp. Haha... Being her usual self, she took pictures of my teddy bear which my Darling gave me. Hee... Doing a few actions like gazing at the scenery outside my room, talking on the handphone, and getting struggled by Wanxin. Sheesh, was fun lah... then I drove her home. On the way, went to meet Chewpeng to pass her her christmas present. I hope they all liked their present. Bought practical stuff for them. Been broke, no money to buy better things. :( Oh well...

Spent some time at Wanxin's place, talking again. And she was showing me all her stuff like her new skirt which was quite nice, which she bought from Yahoo! Auction. She also pass me some Malaysian Immigration card so that I can write it before I go to KL. Was going to KL to see my DARLING. Then I was missing him so much. And now, I still miss him. Every part of him, every scent of him. hehehe...

Of course I miss Wanxin too. It's a pity we didn't spend so much time together. Due to busy schedules. Well, I was on MC for 2 weeks. Oh well... That's about it on 23 Dec.


My mom left for Singapore yesterday. Her flight was 5pm. Renping was very nice to send my mom to the airport. Hence, I was able to tag along. :) She went into the immigration at 4pm. And Mother and Daughter were apart once again. *Tearing at the moment. Sheesh* And shit, my window player is playing the song "When will I see you again?" Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I'm tearing buckets.

The time my mom and I spent in Melbourne for this week was a good one. We went to City, shop around aimlessly just the way I like it. Though sometimes she can be a pain coz she stop at almost everyshop longer than usual to admire the things inside. :S

I can't exactly type how I really feel now. I'm miss my mother so much. And on top of that, I miss my boyfriend terribly too. I guess I need sometime to cool now. Haven't been able to cope this feeling since yesterday. Yeah, I know I'm suppose to write about what happen last year. I will write soon. Once I get the mood. Yeah, I still remember what happened. :) Don't worry friends who have been wanting me to write what happened. :)

Signing off now. Going to Uni now. Hope it's a good day. And make me stop thinking so much.

Sunday, January 09, 2005

How Aries am I?

I'm bored and tired and having a bad headache.... so just doing this for fun.

You are 73% Aries

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

It's a brand new year...

Right.. I know I'm late by 5 days.... But anyway, just to get my first blog of the year going...

I had my first lesson today, yeah, summer school started today. Was pretty boring... but I met new friends. ITPM is all about project team work. Kinda worried about this module, seems like everyone in the group hates programming. Haha.. Not to mention that my group members are all girls.. Oh well, they all seems very nice, and friendly of course. It would be interesting to work with them. I hope all goes well...

Oh, mom cook a nice lunch for me today. Though I only came home at 3pm to eat it. Had soup and french beans. The soup was boiled with dried scallops, shitake mushrooms, chicken and pork. Was delicious.. But ate too much, coz mom always cooked too much... hahaha...

Ok, for the past few days since I got to Melbourne, was mainly spending time to catch up on my sleep and to bring my mom around Melbourne City. So far, I only brought mom to Chinatown and wondered around Swanson Street aimlessly. We bought a can of abalone for my chinese new year that I'm going to be spending here, of course share it with my dearest DARLING (Oh I miss him so so so so so so so so so soooooooooooooooooo much). We bought 2 packet of nougats too. Brought mom to get some undies as well.. haha.. shall not explain why we went to get that. :P. Yeah... that was about it. The rest of the time was spend on eating, buying groceries, packing my room and sleeping. Oh.. Did I mention on Monday, the day that I brought my mom to Chinatown, we went to a chinese restaurant and ate Peking Duck, veggies and some dim sums? YUCKs.. don't go there.. Not nice one.. The name of the restaurant? King Bo. BLEAH... Waste my mother's money... Hmph...

Oh.. My mom and I planned to go to the Great Ocean Road this coming Saturday... I guess that's all from me for now... I will write about what happened last year in my next blog...